Will sun shine for her again

in this critical time
i shall not give up
i knew i can do it
they just want me to drown
i have none offence to them
they might be a little passive
anyway i'm just deal with it

sometimes i'm seems idiotic
but hey i'm not
i have feelings too
but i just don't get to communicate well with other ppl
maybe that's wad make my eq so damm LOW?

poor thing

i had a bad day
yes can obviously see
ok my days are sucks
i was throwing out middle of the night yesterday and gastric somemore
my god i was so pathetic
it's like someone tries to torn you apart from inside your body
after let it all out you just don't feel any better...=.=
so okay
my dead line was yesterday
but i hardly to attend
i have no choice to take leave
2 days of MC
but i plan to go work the next day, since my dead line was already over

so this morning i feel numb.....1st i woke
and i feel numb in 15 mins
and another 20 mins
30 mins
ok..............still numb
so i was thinking can or not for me going to work in such pathetic state?
and tata..............i let my body do all the instruction
u know my brain is like sucking a marijuana can't even fucking move or think
then my body is pushing me to the water tank
then i just let it numb brain and follow what my body instruct me to do
(sometimes i really think i can just speechless but understanding what my body want)
then was i a lil late for reaching my work place
god damm i make it to the office
is like crossing an alley over a big mountain and rounding in a wizard jungle
then finally reach my destination..........
>.<
i was ok after 3pm something =.=
thks god

haiz..............everyday sick
cut i cut my hand wrist ? T.T