Moody, soundless, plain of today

hmm......ate medicine last night
but i still felt abit drowness right now,can't concentrate on my works

i have a quite different way of thinking or maybe someone else is the same
maybe this is what they say, when you are older,you can't change yourself much
when you are young you try different new things for some miscellaneous purposes
they are angels all around you,telling or order you for not doing
that's why your personaliy is totally change when or if you were haven been telll or told

what am i doing here?
i have figure out why i can't change those damm thing in my life nor i can't change it
is my fate?
or i just not the right human to be?

i am stressless
helpless
who will help me inside the feeling of my heart?
the pieces is hurting and will again getting worst

theres the girl who could't change what she have to and what she is not
just a normal girl

just try to be a normal and spectacular human
the cake ain't no destroy my life
but the dignity of my life
my fucking head is pushing me to the corner
and my stupid reaction was just a whore

i'm nothing
i'm just a plain equation

shut up bitch
i'm tired already
what those words out from?
stupid fucking reality life