06.04.2014 Sunday

It's been  such a long time that this abandon blog kinda catch my itchy feeling back

I have so much words to write, but feel kinda lazy to be analysing words sentences *duh

just wanna wrap out few of the dust here

负面情绪

我想了又想
我觉得人真的有时候已经超越了别人的领域却还在沾沾自喜
当你已先入为主决定了那个人
那么剩下的赞美还是留给你自己听吧

我很怕受伤害
一旦感情付出我绝对会100%相信这个人
被刺到了还是会相信
但就纠结在为什么会这样做
我每次都会俳佪着为什么的问题

与其说不站在别人的立场思考
那倒不如说，我真的太多事
想太多了

有时会误导自己真的做错了
但是其实并不是
还被别人评得一点都没值

我的外表或许就那么幼稚无知，或许我给人的感觉就这样
其实我真的不喜欢别人来探索我的世界
就好像扒光了衣服被人看得清澈

小时候我时常告诉自己
别人对我好我也必须以德报恩
但是事实并不是那么简单

人是会改变
在每一个阶段
你曾经会是她／他得好朋友／谈心得对象／陌生人

每次得每次我会把我的缺点先告诉别人
以免产生误会
但是我错了
说到底这只是要别人包容我的举动
或许你真的把心掏了出来
但是别人不一定是
又可能会看情况改变而定要不要把心掏出

我相信清者自清
我只相信一个东西
改变不是一天
而是累计

我好累
不想再看，不想再听，不想再说
每每看一次就好像刀刺着心头，说真的我好难受
陷入太过重感情的我，真的很难把事情看得那么圆滑
我只会把错往身上抗
而奇怪真正做错的人却扬起嘴角得意的自认自己是清白

好多的为什么让我钻了很多牛角尖
我觉得够了
他们什么都不是
却真的丢脸极了
一个公主和丫环拿什么来比？
若真的公主要比，丫环要觉得开心还是害怕呢？

晚安了世界
晚安了月亮
晚安了负面的我

The climb

I love this song, it always calm me down

recently i just solve the myth in the family
and the feelings doesn't taste good

i am always too naive that people treat me nice and i should do the same
but it turns out nope.....it just harm me every single time
and i am the one have to blamed

Somebody keep blocking my way

if you are reading this
yea, i'm not gonna be beaten by you, no matter how huge background you have
bring it on if you wanna block my way, God's will know what you do in my back and what is your root intention.

You are not pretty, your heart is been swollen

Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday
when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today,
ooh, ooh

 I would hold you in my arms,
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done,
forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
but I know you won't be there

 Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this,

ooh Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself,
oh If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that
I've missed you Since you've been away 
Oh, it's dangerous It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
 I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself By hurting you

a song that speak from my heart

Life

As i try to find words, to put in a wishing well

It's ok that non poetry words are use on me

but give me a reason, what, why and how is a person deserve a humiliation from another person?

you are just a cavalier in your own world, trying to act someone nice

i'm afraid that the gesture upon you has comes over you

I want you to know, i am receiving this Humiliation now

and i would hoping you would get the greatest Karma

i will never forgive deep in my heart

that's how life moves on silently, quietly and in other words you think is peacefully