かわいいJuliet

06.02.2012 Monday

2012-02-06T05:49:00.000-08:00

好累呀
肚子在隐隐做痛
结果还被人说，你不会等下去跑shopping hor?
我不明白我的肚子都在痛了怎么跑去shopping?
好想逃离这个白痴地方，呆久了会短命几年
我只能说，人不可貌相!

有些事，我真的看得好厌倦了
不管是工作还是朋友
都是一样
我其实都有感觉都知道

我想逃离，是因为我不想伤害我的身体健康
不开心的话毒素会慢慢在我们体内蔓延
结果成了，高血压或中风

大家很自我中心
我也明白，但是太过的话，未免....=.=
当人家有意见你也不曾过滤
那当然我们也不会过滤你所说的‘每一句话‘
别说人家会因为你而赴汤蹈火
你错了
没有人会这样
会这样，是对你有种不一样的信任
但是你却歪曲了这个观点
那么别人不觉得你怎么样，你恼羞成怒也未免太过多余了？
你把一切说的有生有气的
但是我只能当你在说废话
因为那个是你的观点
只能说
你做那么多
我没眼看
也很懒惰去听你的不满
真得很累，每天就只能听到你不满别人
你何时会自己反省？

累....我已经很累了
你不要再把负担加给我了
长大吧，成熟一点，做错事只要有内疚和有悔改之心，都没问题的
我还有一堆攻心计的家伙要对付的
你这样我真的很累

18.01.2012 Wednesday

2012-01-18T06:25:00.001-08:00

今天好不开心
上帝要我面对这些人给我考验吗？
我不知道
人家做工我也做工，可是为什么我都是那个受委屈的
我好看不开，因为我吃不消
耻辱不是问题，被刁难和针对才是最可悲的

我好想哭可是眼泪已经没力量流了

好吧现在发泄一下把一切都忘了吧

晚安

5/1/2012 Thursday

2012-01-05T07:09:00.000-08:00

It is a beautiful day yet i leave my tears for you
the wind are breezing
a first though come ahead was you
it didn't take time to erase but to memorize badly as i could be
Bruno mars song repeating like it never end
hinted me anxiously but it did gone
is surprisingly cold feet slam the door

i'll get use what it's already dig out

a thing which i am stumble in between

27.12.2011 Tuesday

2011-12-27T05:34:00.000-08:00

i am sinner
today i God damm know i am a sinner
i did something that is totally cruel towards to another person

i should have know this would happen
Oh dear Lord please wash away my sin
or i didn't deserve the right for being a innocent
i deserve the rest of the punishment
let me be what u want me to be
just don't take away my love's one

i love them more than anyone else

i do know i don't deserve anything from you
because i'm just a wicked bitch
revenge doesn't make me feel better
i got my revenge once
and i got my revenge again twice
although i made up all this revenge i still gain valueness

is that the passion that tempted me so much makes me stronger?
i even doubt what i want

sorry my dear
i swear i will be faithful to you every step that we have make it till today

forgive my wrong God
let me be once again the purity of your daughter

26.12.2011 Monday

2011-12-26T05:42:00.000-08:00

以前看到的小混混
现在也变得不一样了
不是因为知道社会更凄惨
而是他们都变得成熟了
人不长一智，但不是永远都这样
人会改变
只怕人不会看到自己的错误而改变
我当然还在学习着接受别人的批评

不过我不会为了那些无谓的批评而改变自己
无谓的话说多都是无谓
为何我要活在你的无谓的话语当中？
我当然选择活在能够快乐的环境下吧

选择很重要
如果做错了决定，也非得坦然接受
很多的早知道都把它给啃了吧

虽然有时候这样的人不惹大家感冒
不过了当妥协这才是最明智

还剩几天就到了2012年了
我还在想有什么大愿望呢

新的一年新的开始
新的一天也是新的开始哦
加油

A Thousand Years

2011-12-22T05:42:00.000-08:00

(Verse 1)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

(Verse 2)
Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

希望你听得到^^

20.12.2011

2011-12-20T06:44:00.000-08:00

最近都好累好困哦
一直想睡觉就好了
可能天气超冷的关系
我只想躲在棉被里

圣诞节又要到了
今年的圣诞蛮特别的
我将会参加我好朋友的婚礼
超期待的说

这个月不知道干嘛花了将近2百多
都不知道要从那里省=.=

我的大事说长不长短也不短
要接近另外一个阶段了
我好紧张
我是否已经作好了准备
我决定在这期间真的必须改掉那些稚气，任性和胡思乱想的怀习惯
要学会把每一件事情都看得很开

不懂何时看了一句话

‘真正的敌人并不是你的敌人，而是你的朋友，因为你已经对敌人产生免疫，但却对你的朋友毫无防备，被判就开始产生了’

我真的给一万个赞哦

对不起我伤害的人请给我机会做得更好
对不起要伤害我的人给我时间反击你

每天早上对这自己说今天一定会更好
这样我就不会那么emo了
坏情绪远离我嘛>.<

15.12.11 Thursday

2011-12-15T05:34:00.000-08:00

利用了 the notebook来哭一场
感觉那些委屈都一起的哭掉了

相爱的能够在一起真的是太好了
一直到老

今天是我的好朋友香香的生日

香香生日快乐哦

虽然我们都不能经常见面
但是我们都很有彼此的心
我们认识都有5年了吧
那时你还是我senior呢
不过告诉你一个小秘密哦

你是我遇过最最最好的senior

虽然你是凶了一点（像人家欠你钱降）
不过你不会像那些变态这样欺负我(害羞）

现在我们就从同事变成好朋友了(happy)

你一直都是我很好的顾问
我一遇到任何难题你都会建议我
(虽然我都死命寻求要你给我意见那种赫赫）

今年的生日应该不一样吧
有不同的人陪你了嘻嘻

对不起哦我没能在你身边陪你度过今天

还是要祝你生日快乐哦
永远漂亮美丽白白粉嫩
事业步步高升
人气每天都旺旺

happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

28.11.11 Monday

2011-11-28T06:49:00.001-08:00

i was trying to upload GIF picture yesterday
i have tried several website
and it still fail to paste it on my blog
somehow photobucket eventually break my boundaries
for not using it as in before
i though it is so unsecure
cause every picture in it will be officially share in public
but then now i've found a way to prevent the problem duh
it could be lock (okay i'm a noob)
my blog actually support photobucket GIF file
that's awesome lol

anyway
my boogieman keep laughing at the picture duh =.=
i know is abit odd......and self centrelize haha
but i don't give a shit till i change a new 1

u know when it comes to dream
that's plenty of em u need do be chasing
but few of us are chasing it

i am been chasing my dream since all the while
is astonished that my perseverance are strong
i wish to be stronger
i wish to be pro than everyone
but that just in my dream
lolz

main thing is
i didn't give up my dream
so why aren't you chasing it now?
its never too late or too old

i have this strongly emotional switching these day
i don't know?
i'm pretty upset of these day
life just pretend to be nice
but deep down there's lot of bullshit thing that running through my head
neither does everyone out there
i just learn to let it go quickly
it can't be possible just let it go in the circumstance
some calmness of all should be aware
if you're not calm enough , then u shouldn't be talking about your opinion to them
it just messing things up
while i was trying to dig it more and make myself like shit
and hey...i was like hearing some voice saying to me : don't piss ur shit on others, they may not be your rely ability in your life, you should learn to let it go
and then i was so relieved that the voice came to me
so then i was so bless

i have to learn to giving gratitude towards something that is sooo poorly bad to me
i have to got the will to carry on
there's a lot more to learn
but all i wanted to learn is be simple and happy

so i wish you guy's the same
anyway snooze off time
night everyone
blessing for you guys of tomorrow

小心

2011-11-26T09:28:00.001-08:00

不知道是什么突然而来谨慎
我现在开始要习惯
什么都要保持表面的接触
因为真的服了

这样也好
有时候省回非常多不必要的麻烦

最近发生了让我奔泪的事
也有让我流泪的事

不管怎样
我已经熬过来了（你看我肚子还是很大个>3<)
不过还是要熬下去
辛苦还是要熬

我这个人很简单
睡一晚
全部事情都忘记
如果太严重的，可能耿耿于怀几个月
过后气消了
也就没杀伤力了（所以每次被人欺负T.T)

不过这样也好啦
不会病倒哈哈

大家晚安
我们要加油

圣诞节要到了哦
要开开心心的过

creep

2011-11-21T00:46:00.001-08:00

开始不知道自己涉下的陷阱却被自己掉入
就像近期的天气，雨天频频
我的心也跟着哭泣
哭泣自己的软弱而犯下的错误
为了只是自己的体贴
而背弃了自己的良知

不过这将会结束
一切从新开始

对不起
我间接的伤害了那么多人

2011-11-15T05:21:00.001-08:00

Throughout there's a here and there words
that eventually monk you getting a shitty mood

the conflict situation just as simply as it solve

JUST BULLSHIT WITH EM

didn't realize that how powerful that an significant entertainer are so damm real alive infront of me
i got so stunn
maybe i'm just getting a little jealous over here
or actually they are jealous of the pureness of me (lolz thats impossible)

people just about to show how perfect how noble they are, of cause i am obviously one of them (i'm a human being too lolz)
what about been gratitude to everything you have right now
giving and most of forgiving, give and take
we know how it works, we definitively know the equation
affirmatively we will just put down our own arrogant plastic bulky mind
and TATA we actually get along pretty well duh.....

i hate disaster between gossip and rumours back here
they actually judge you like you really doing it
argh shit....
or guessing your hair of secret
wtf

are those rubbish are out of nothing but guessing and giving their PROFESSIONAL judgement
astonishing ?
our father of court judgement would just throw their tender letter la
hahaha

but between the truth and false or misunderstanding
this centrelize person just being too deep
till then i'll just getting my limits off behide your faking mask

well before the post run out
i'm sure this will being publish around
and take a guess if i am talking about you right now
then u are certainly wrong
every post that i have written if you kinda like
pointing a finger bend it back and say : ohh no dear lord she is saying me, ohh fucking bullshit

ahh suck your balls then
u are just a rubbish in my eye (trapping the words already)

this is just freestyle
and straight forward attitude of all bitches

hoola.....Goodays to u my dear all

forbidden

2011-11-07T04:26:00.000-08:00

there is some how we over control their life
we spread over than what we exactly should behave
courtesy still squeeze in first

and we then now realize then we done unnecessary part
a life that they know how to hang on

and we regretted to control it
the balls get you, or you are getting the balls
no matter how confident they fitted
there's just a misery life

a comment and criticizer is not what you determine to be
an advisor is what you have to do

know what your strenght are

她2

2011-10-27T06:30:00.000-07:00

她很讨厌
因为她尝试过

她发誓不这么做
不再相信那脆弱甜蜜的话语

每当她以为她再度遇见了真爱
其实他们都一样

心存背叛才有动力吗？她思考

报复心一直都潜在她心中无法抵抗
于是玩弄了无数的他们
伤害他们
欺骗他们
让他们自愿陷入爱河
再把他们给杀了

告诉自己
他们都一样

直到那个和她一样悲观主义着的鲁希菲出现了
他们的结合并不是上帝之作
她把脆弱受伤的心灵交给了鲁希菲
她知道鲁希菲是个会知道她在想什么的天使
鲁希菲把她捧在手里
小心的爱护着
一天一天的把她和鲁希菲的心相连
甜蜜的旋律鲁希菲都会为她歌唱
多美妙多浪漫

很奇妙的
一直都以为很幸福的她认为鲁希菲是上帝派来的
此时鲁希菲不见了

她不能接受鲁希菲不告而别
她不能相信自己亲耳听见鲁希菲说了伤害的话语
她宁愿聋了，哭出血泪都不原意接受这个事实

就这样
鲁希菲走了

上帝就是这样
让你得逞，结果又再次让你陷入悲伤

她重振自己的心理
报复心更加不用说
比之前的浓度还深

她又寻找猎物

今天她找到你了吗？

too characteristic

2011-10-27T06:01:00.000-07:00

不需要别人的了解让自己脱离误会
他们的义务不是来了解你

不需要别人的拥抱让你温软
始终会有别舍的一天

不需要知道背后被人杀了几次
因为他们让你变得愚拙

不需要在乎他们的眼光
没有100%的东西会成全别人

不需要关心别人
你已经够你父母担心

就算他们赢得了世界
你还是你

他们算什么

文明的社会由你来表达

26.10.11 Wednesday

2011-10-26T04:42:00.000-07:00

It's how amazing that

words are created by human

it can be beautiful and hurtful

so speak amazing encouraging words to other today

not a fakish compliment but speak deep from your heart

Maybe i wasn't the one that know how to speak a rightful words

but atleast i don't speak fake compliment towards others

eventually i will just keep my mouth shut

a white lies is base on situation and we begin to giving fake compliment

i wasn't the person to understand a double side twisting compliment

a person which complimented you just a second ago

and turns your back saying things that are truly awful

i just get disgusted by these people

you can just shut up and keep it to yourself

neither do they wants to hear your compliment and get appreciated with

lols that's how a gossip turns

be helpful

be natural

be yourself

be the optimistic person that you ever are

be the 1 who lives happier than your enemy

enemy might just be your greatest friend

take this to your life

be gratitude to what you have now

life isn't just be that easy nor getting it be tough

you are bless as long as you get to turn on your internet

you are living among the blessed

why slam someone's a day when u have their day in your hand?

be their angel be giving them the happy day everyday

well human does live longer when they live happily

24.10.2011 Monday

2011-10-24T08:01:00.000-07:00

finally finally i got to FINALLY UPGRADED my IOS 5

not intend for jailbreak duh =.=

it isnt easy for mine iphone to be upgraded

because that was an error before (blame it for jailbreak fun =.=)

i was so tempted to jailbreak before i even get very conductive to know it first

and then so on, u should probally guess a pc noobie try to have a very manual jailbreak on her own =.=

so then my iphone software are slightly corrupted

everytimes the stupid upgrade things available my iphone will gonna stuck in ~~DFU~~ mode
GOSHHH i really hated the part
it really damaging my upgraded systems and itune software

so i don't know what noob way i did
atleast i just show you the noobie method perhaps you got better than mine =.= (but this method will just help you to cross only 1 upgrade each time it will not help to solve and recover forever, if u jb it b4 i guees u could know wad im talking about)

1st : my iphone was stuck in DFU mode, it will not be restarted (uh uh not not even home+lock)
2nd: downloaded black rain -> install for which lappie u are eventually using example = pc or mac
3rd: just go to www.getcloudapp.com
4th: and wala.......there goes upgrading

importantly is i decide to upgrade my itune without plugging in my iphone
that's kinda work for a basic succeed then.....
so maybe u have a better way to solve my current problem right now

that's just some of my methods to get upgraded anyway (and i know it's abit too wrong for some way either)

well tata click for my ads and like my page

lotsa lotsa Love for you :D

2011-10-12T20:16:00.000-07:00

我原来现在才发现这首歌真的很好听虽然不是新歌了

最近切实是很行尸走肉
见不到自己的目标
心里竟然没了方向感
低情绪又来敲门了

感谢你对我不离不弃
你要相信我下了非凡的苦力，都一定会有很非凡的耕耘，哈哈

我想念我的钢琴阿
如果每天都呆在家我都会玩玩
心情不好弹弹诗歌又冷静下来
现在人在外玻真的是身不由己阿
每个周末回到去又太累了，
完全没有动到琴现在变得半桶水了=3=
不过应该会有一天的

我等的那天是看我的奋斗和努力的
那么以后就不需有什么政治不政治的问题了

Old time

2011-10-12T02:38:00.001-07:00

Can u just speak to me nicely like in the first time that we met? I am a girl an human being not just some decoration to hang around with

Words stand for a important part in our life, especially it comes out from u

I don't joke with someone I love

I hope u getting the pulse

哭泣

2011-10-07T08:28:00.000-07:00

A someone like you

2011-10-06T06:14:00.000-07:00

The touch of you makes me linger

romance was all i have

before....

but till then

it is all an empty shell

even if i dying on the street

i won't want you back

i met you

then

you touched me

without giving me romances

i learn all that things you done for

is for me

i care like no one else

a pampering child lying at your arms but she still feel not enough

you shown me the way you handle me

even i curse you

i bully you

i hurt you

you are just like me

you leaving it behide

just like i forgot about it the next day

a mature way that you shown me about love

i am the desperate psycho

you are the geeky nerdy

desperate psycho needs love care desperately that will ease their lonely

geeky nerdy just stay where they are and feel bless in every moment they have

but a someone like you adores me

everyone tries to pull me over

but i stay for you

i will always be there for you

Hong Kong Trip ~ 10/09/11 - 14/9/11

2011-10-05T07:56:00.000-07:00

山顶 - The Peak

Finally woo-hoo the trip report is now here XD

anyway it was already a few weeks ago till now ( please forgive me i'm so busy, work study exam....ahh life is just so RUSH =.= )

ok ok here it goes

10/9/11 - 13/9/11 a 5 days 4 nights trip

Before trip the trip : boogieman & i change SGD2500 (for 2 person) to HKD is roughly around HKD16,000++

The air ticket was bought in promotion period RM350++ 2 ways
CHEAP RIGHT?!

well of cause we support ~~AIR ASIA~~

it's like taking rocket heading to space (so narrow, i think i have sore bone after seated =.= , wtf is cheap wad !!! o0o)

we didn't plan for any schedule so does the 2guys there

arrive Macao and take Ferry to Hong Kong

for ya information

1. Yes Macao could use HKD and they do have their own dollar but HKD is uses in 2 country, but not sure if its Macao
2. Do have to plan your schedule if ya are a bag packer cause there's alot of things to explore and experience
3. Meanwhile if you think you can't possibly walk 5km then u might just forget and drop the journey, cause there's a long walk you have challenge ( the taxifare is...EXPENSIVE!)

and here we go !!!

Day 1 : a 5am Morning flight ! we sleep and awake adjusted posture and sleep for 3 hours time XD

On da plane

we snooze zzzzzzzzz ing.....

REACH MACAO (well just picture story now, cause the main subject are all taken in)

And hello Macao

Next thing you gotta do is ride on AP1 bus to the ferry terminal

and of coz buy a ticket let's swim to HONG KONG aye peeps!!!

(the ticket cost about HKD40)

HONG KONG!!!!!!!

it just take 1 hour reaching HK, the ferry is cozy and comfort, if you are rich and u thk u have nth else where to spent to, you can try to catch helicopter to HK =.= (but i am super willingly beg u give meh de money XD)

Familliar with HK street?

we are starving drying =.= and this is de 1st stop we had our lunch

well don't expect HK peeps mind their attitude, u have to mind your own ya

it's actually like already is their culture

the gorgeousness of this !!!!

U can see this shop anywhere....XD

is actually something like erm bubble tea XD

cosmetic shop "bonjour" it's every where duh =.= (but they do sell cheap prices of quality item)

and tata..........our room!!

is like a 1 step to the bed 2 step to the bathroom and 3 step out of da room (it's narrow but cheap)

RM80++ per night

A thing that you coundn't live without the OCTOPUS CARD is like a prepaid card for riding transport or MTR in HK

our next stop its THE PEAK

if you haven't know about the place

The peak map

U can search the information here :)

A beautiful building, it's vintage and styelo

As you know going the peak one thing is you can't miss the madame-tussauds

Adult: HK$200

Child (3-11 years) / Senior (aged 65 or above): HK$100

Click for more details :)

3 Stranger here XD

Here we GO >.<

Scary it's going up!!

Nicole Kidman

The couple - Angelina Jolie & Brad Pitt

come on, it's fake i just wanna touch it - Aaron kwok

Robert Patison - damn he is HOT, i know right?!

ok are he is trying to touch my thang? coz i dun give a shit here XD

ok....just skip tp next pic

there's a haunted house inside though, but i don't really have the nerve to go in

the peak it's just at the top floor just go all de way up, it's nth special anyway the scenery it's awsome , pro photographer loves it there i bet but really nth to hang much

it's already night after this

we are starving again >.<

heading back to Central where the foods are most allocate there

The Msia Twins

Lan kwai Fong - this is where you club & drink

ok my foot are barely broke

we miss out street and wrong way go ( u gotta do a well survey duh)

and till then let's go off de day and zzzz

Day 2 : met up with a friends, she is so brave that she came HK along by herself, that's the spirit that i want

but hundreds of people think i will die there =.=

okay she bought us to eat DIM SUM omg...!

DIM SUM in HK hooray

it's near tsim sha tshui

莲香- this is de place

i don't know about the price we total eaten but the food here its damm expensive

The pasar pagi (morning market)

This is also famous and nice but we miss it

i saw this while walking down the street it's just so beautiful

Random capture

This is wad they popular selling - milk bean pudding

egg tart just next to the shop

the popular bolo bun

TOTO

SHOPPING TIME!!!

yes they have alot of cheap things here

adidas, puma, nike and lots of lots of em >.<

i am busying buying things and bags are hanging all over me so i have less picture could be taken XD

Going to have supper and drinks tonight

a funny scenario happens here

大排挡

Day 3

Breakfast

Sure wonder what's agency, carefully readed its actually a tuition agency

=.= like superstar

oh yay let's go for Crystal cable car

Weird....a subway and in chinese area =.=

大雄宝殿

after all de walking a sweat LUNCH

u shd really try this u can't find this at other place

大小人

everyone wear geek spec =.= this is some random guy =.=

dinner

it's not really that delicious it's the same thing as wad msia have

This is de best u shd really go have this - 车仔面线

Avenue of Star

My Emo pic XD

Ice cream

erm yummy

i am so knock off after that..........my foot is started to pain like hell

Day 4

黄大仙

wondering HK flower is it have the same smell XD

ok this is the very nice potrait that my boogieman takes for me

after a half day of visiting the temple

we have to rush back to terminal take ferry and rush back to Macao, so we are able to be there for the early flight

Macao hotel is........super comfy

is just only 5pm the shop are all close =.=

ohh i love this car is cool

the wall the wall the wall

met a cutie doggie while resting

must try their pork burger is delicious

it's lantern festival, pretty fest right?

Add caption

ok so that's it..... honestly i'm a little lazy to write alot lol

well the situation was in a very hush and rush

and we are not done any homework before coming for the trip

but it;s fun and nice

i hope come once again for more time

hope i have given enough information duh =.=

comment if not >.<

I just wanted to tell you

2011-10-04T08:02:00.001-07:00

我只想对你说你知道吗？

love.feel

2011-09-17T09:14:00.000-07:00

那天的温柔牢牢的牵着她的心
她知道.她和他是不可能的

为什么看到他和别的女生嬉皮笑脸她会吃醋
为什么他对她那么的无比的温柔
为什么他比身边的他更加了解她

每当看到他
她多么希望他每一时每一刻都在注意着她

她不知道自己的感觉已经在慢慢加深
她只希望自己能够克制

只能怪自己和他没缘份

那天她看到了他对别人的温柔体贴
她很不是滋味

好想就让他知道自己已经疯狂的喜欢上他
可是会改变一切变成悲剧

她只好把感觉锁好
对着原有的他爱着他，别让他受伤

思念着另一个他

Pain

2011-09-17T08:56:00.000-07:00

刺痛

又来了吗？
每次都黄黄的
这次又感染了吗？
感染到里面了吗？
怎么感觉很有便意很想小便的
刺痛刺痛着
那两片小肉片在收缩着

呼....呼....呼

不行了还是要上厕所

啊......

尿撒到要高潮的时候
竟然痛的像针插进去尿道
很敏感很敏锐
筋在澎硬着，用着万般的集中力在这时刻
终于疼痛慢慢的疏散
可是还是很想小便

真的把脏话骂完她就会解放吗？

走回房
拿起喝了无数次的瓶子
装水
希望会好些

看着沾黄的小布
不仅觉得无奈
为什么这东西会流得那么黄腻？

幻想着有一天
一只粘腻的手会从下体抓狂的爬出来
其实里面就是一只恶魔
流着黄臭的液体

她只想要个洁净的身体
不过感觉带着她走进不干净的死亡乐曲里

27.08.11 Saturday

2011-08-26T21:02:00.001-07:00

当你说我们没有理睬你的时候，那我当时down的时候你说的话也直接冲击了我的心情，

你有想过我是选择忍下来吗？而不是和你翻脸吗？

亲爱的你要别人顾及你的感受人是完完全全做不到的，

何况是我，

我也想在我down的时候有你们和我一起感受，

可是这样做会让你们过这非常不开心的一天，

我愿意emo都不影响你们，因为你们是我的朋友

24.08.11 Wednesday

2011-08-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

我觉得世界变可爱了

因为看透了吗？

不对不对我那里会那么容易看透

只是能够说

忍耐的极限，真的到达了

我并不在乎什么只在乎不过分

可能太沉默了并没有好好表示自己想要表达的

又或许顾虑太多了

可能这是一堂课

我还是喜欢s小姐说的:一种米养百种人

晚安了世界

A beautiful Monday

2011-08-22T07:45:00.000-07:00

When u say alot of things like that I wonder how it may feel if it's u

But however I know I'm not the only 1 who fucked up right now, like my Coll grandma just pass hey guy here a condolence for ur grandma shell sure be alright God stay and with her, and my mum met a terrible sibling breakdown, the most un forgiven un reliable un educated and plotting all de cash in hand just to make my mum down they are flesh m blood and pure 1, still turns out like this..... So hey friend I know I should cheer up abit right ( Aye u relieve ) and yes I deeply felt great everyone is doomer than me, what the fuck im emo ing for?

Girls just have a really tough complex of heart T.T

And still I just wanted to tell those bitches in G GO FUCK YOURSELF( visible vulgar words to those bitches who are mean to me n back stabbing me )

And hello I am getting high n fly with a B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L standing infront of ur mug face

Lol I am kinda joking like YOU! am I being mean, noooooo I didn't MEAN it

Wahahha

Friday 19.08.2011

2011-08-19T07:46:00.000-07:00

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31.07.11

2011-07-31T08:49:00.000-07:00

Hello Minasan

today's the last day of July

yeah, i'm having a tough emotion war

and yes i am fighting till yesterday

i need my baby so much

he is my medicine would control my temper

honestly i can't live without him

i am been so ignorance annoying buying those bull shit just let him to dick me

it just doesn't work

how special he is right?

i am not very good in my job frankly saying

well they dissapoint in me? i don't know

but i am more like in de paralzying boudaries

there was a time i thinking of to giving up my studies focus on work

luckly i didn't do that, that just a flash came in and out in a while

phew lucky that i really didn't take any action

cause i know whatever i do it's just a failure to them

now...i just try to look wider and stop being like them as a petty air bag

i really don't keep petty air around, its just felt so terrrible

and this is de reason why i have a tough month

i don't blame them for dissapointing in me

yes i am clumsy sloppy well....i really did try my best to avoid any mistake

sometimes we just do some minor mistakes

and like a minor mistakes can be so exaggeration at last of the story?

this is wad we call a human twist

i believe in karma

i do believe they will receive it

but i don't curse them

nah...im not a mean person

but i believe everything lives with a karma

Goodnight

hoping a new august bringing a new life

forget about sorrowful things and move ahead

and this is de month me n my baby (boogieman) celebrating our 3rd year of anniversary <3

我们

2011-07-21T07:37:00.000-07:00

回到家犹如往常看着那背影对着电脑

地上还是和往常一样肮脏

如果可以选

我想要对每件事都很感好奇的家伙

有着多多的梦想

我们的未来打算

但这些似乎不是预算中的那么美满

虽然我知道我不缺你的疼爱

不过没有讨论的未来

我很没有安全感

看着你对着那毫无意义网络游戏那么起劲我也无法想象自己以后会是和怎么样的人在一起

我很累了

你可以了解我的累吗？

心累了

真的感觉不到任何的爱意

只感觉到敷衍

对我的冲动似乎没有对那个电脑冲动到离谱

我很不对是吧？

当然我今天写了这样的blog我也觉得我很不太对

我怎么可以批评嫌弃一个对我那么好的男朋友

是啊，我真的很坏

可是我真的很想把内心的不满呐喊出来

不是信任的问题

而是之间已经错过了什么

我好想知道是不是我已经懒惰得去理你了？

还是你懒得去鸟我

18.06.11 saturday

2011-06-18T07:42:00.000-07:00

忧郁症好像回来了

好久好久没有这样了

一直胡思乱想，一直很想自杀

我真的觉得好压力

我很不能面对难题，现在一点的堕落能让我变成另一个人

我很不想这样......

谁可以救我？

12.06.11 Sunday

2011-06-12T04:07:00.001-07:00

wad a lazy day aye peeps

just wanted to laying lazily on de smoothy grass listen to music that i like

i get so flatter that i been complimented by my fren Ms.S now days

she de reason that keep me hanging on for nowdays life

i get pretty stuck up by then with them

atleast there's a motivation for me to carry on though

it's been almost a year....that we been having a hot blood war

since then i realize nothing is a BFF there will no be anyone of them can replace

i realize that you gotta make ur self a shield before you have letting anyone to walk in

it's amazing that some ppl just dun get the attention of their importantness

i just treasure it the friendship among us

and that's exactly i love the way it is

if you think you are too secretive to yell the hell out front of me

thats ok....well while i realizing that i'll do the same

but till then i met this person

who is consistently changing her whole life without fear and the outteraction gossip

aye Juliet...u should learn from her too am i rite?

she's is way wonderful and a great person that i've ever met

this is where we get started :)

08.06.11 Wednesday

2011-06-08T08:35:00.000-07:00

我很想撕下你的脸皮让大家了然

我很想狂抓你让你感到伤痛

我知道不能

我的内心很邪恶我不想让自己再一次从来

我不会上你的当不会

i will aggressively approach to ur alley

and let u push me down

while i drowning i will grab a hold on ur foot and get u to die with

好脆弱的心

好狭窄的心

妒忌不能让你变得美丽

而是让你处处处于危险状况

当你发现的时候一切都不能改变

你已经是个被人玩弄到颓废的烂工具

06.06.11 Monday

2011-06-06T07:32:00.000-07:00

你知道嗎聽你說話我只需要聽你說話
在你的聲音中安全得讓我害怕

這是一個快樂的警告警告我別想逃
這個特別的時刻判斷絕不會是你想要

你的溫柔包圍而我像個沒人愛的傻瓜
你的影子巨大像喧囂的髒話

在一片歡樂的景象之中我卻覺得勉強
在離別的前夕找不憂傷的台階下

你承認吧你也想要體驗英雄般的誇張悲壯
來不及為你歌唱你瀟灑而昂揚

在一片荒涼的景象之中我卻覺得晴朗

讓我為你飛翔在你殘破的天空之上
讓我為你飛翔在你殘破的天空之上

讓我聽你說話給我肩並肩的擁抱

这是cheer 的一首歌

超爱

说起音乐我真的超爱的

我可以一整天都听音乐也不觉得腻

有时候问自己如果世界上没有了音乐

是不是世界会变成灰暗？

我的情绪很容易就被音乐而牵动（好没个性呀）

好彩有音乐世界变得明朗

充满活力

每一天活着的意义是什么？

就这样了吗？

你知道吗？我好想去别的国家到处工作旅行

看看世界各地的生活方式

融入他们的文化

每天看到周围的环境觉得很烦闷

真的人生就那么过了吗？

好想好想做些让自己喜欢的东西

我的梦想也只能想

我只能够幻想一切不真实的事情

我知道明天我还是要面对

如果能我希望我是只老鹰

雄威的飞翔，高贵的光看世界

就好像明了整个世界的构图

好累哟

大家晚安啦

01.06.2011 Wednesday

2011-06-01T06:15:00.001-07:00

i really felt very upset
making me like im de foolish 1

u also have been through this once
but u never realize how u say all those things will make de story ends like

we just need a job

when i smile it doesn't mean i'm ok
i am wondering of your attitude
its so bad that i been accuse in this state, where this problem doesn't exist in before

i wish time can turn fast and let everybody know the truth

the way u do is just so childish
the way u teaching it's not a very mature way
and u just want it in ur own way
i'm ok with it
is ok i have leave my pride bhide and making u the lead
u can take down every pride i have now
but u just wait and see who is de 1 that are mocking at ur back now

31.05.2011 Tuesday

2011-05-31T08:05:00.000-07:00

又是到了月尾咯，新的一个月又来临了（好惨尽然在最后一天生大病=.=)

今天又是多灾多难（又迷路了好彩一家诊所就出现在你眼前~天开眼阿）
要不然我今天可能就倒在路边

好闷呀
是时候要k书了

是时候戒fb了（都是fb的错哈哈）
要不然每天玩ps玩到不停的呢

今天下午下了好大好大的雨
我就舒舒服服的躺在我那一堆堆软绵绵的大枕头上
真的超舒服的
如果是大热天的话，我觉得我病情会加重

今天超感动的
我的boogieman为了我陪我上山下海的去还东西
他怕我昏倒所以还是紧张的一起跟着来好了
超可爱的啦（最近因为他又变肥了，所以一看到他就很想捏他肥肥的脸，真的好喜欢那个肥肥的脸哈哈，看了都开心）

明天要加油！！！

大家你们也要加油！！！

gd nitez zzzzzz

30.05.2011 Monday

2011-05-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

God bless i am fluing + coughing distrubia to everyone around me
my nose is like a water tank non-stop flowing =.=

anyway is a Monday blue (ya it is )

Let's get peace & pray for tomorrow :)

nitez nitez my tomodachi san XD

27.05.2011 Friday

2011-05-27T08:51:00.000-07:00

TGIF!!!
thinking of having "hielo" on this weekend, i'm excited!!!
do ya guys know wad is that?
well is actually an yoghurt ice cream that i crush on lately
ok ROLF

i wanted to have an tattoo....badly
well is not that it's pretty cool or awesome
but i think is a special mark it slightly embrace what kind of attitude u are today and about urself :)

i thinking of some special symbols or words
Judas is a word that i wanted the most, because it's mean Jesus
and a treble clef sign will, well neither do 1 will make me feel awesomeness into it.....
ok maybe im over parody for that
but i am with seriousness duh

suggestion suggestion >...<

17.05.2011 Tuesday

2011-05-17T06:04:00.000-07:00

Today finally the day that i can rest my feet on

God planned my every single day

he know what is the things is suitable to be appear on my current state

when the bad things happen he knows that i can take to risk the blow

and thanks for my dear who always occupied his job and duty to comfort me although i always don't shower him a good words

but i am blushing here to say : Hey i am very thankful to have you all in my heart ! ^^

I wish tomorrow never come, gosh i hate hypocrite people...

can't actually saying they r those hypocrypy but definitely is not gonna be a good feel

damm i really hope i can handle this...

i am lazy for changing everyday and start anew

i just hope i can take things easily:(

God let it be Brightening Wednesday can ya? >.<

26.03.2011 Saturday

2011-03-25T22:14:00.000-07:00

我们为什么那么在乎别人说什么？

我很想告诉你

我并没有被你伤害

伤心理所当然的会有

我很开心今天我远离了个神经病患

其实坦白说别人有多么的烂

是他们的事

爱情是什么？

你那么神圣那么你经营好它吗？

一段的感情没有持久的感觉

感觉会渐渐消失变成习惯

我们通常在白纸上看到小黑点就对那个小黑点非常在意

一个人的优点那么大那么多，难道只是一个小黑点他就应该是犯人吗？

我们凭什么来说他呢？

如果我们没有缺点的话那么请你指正那个人吧。。。

问题是。。。有这样的人吗？

经营不是件容易的事情

当然is not fault to trying

is not responsible to not trying

选对了人

好好珍惜

做错了，反省改过

we deserve a second life and second chance

我们都是人

我们都会犯错

只要我们知道对与错的分别

我相信你可以完成自己的成就和理想的效果

我们都在尝试，在努力

大家都一起加油吧

15.03.2011 Tuesday

2011-03-14T11:39:00.000-07:00

The joy that you bring was always in our heart

Dear Grandpa

I hope you'll doing great up there with Jesus

the ceremony wasn't actually the way you wanted or if its the way you wanted just try to be happy and be peace

I never knew how much you love me or be biaser on other

i didn't blame you, i just gotta let you know

whatever you did in your life

YOU DID GREAT

although people won't appreciated what you gave n what you done

the character of yourself you know the best

Everytime when i think how you dote on me

asking me about the hunting armor things, you were extreamely excited

sometime it amuse me but i think is quite a memory between you and me

you like to talk in ur special style

i think thats kinda cool :)

i know how much Grandma woudn't bear that your leaving

she suffer and pain and felt lost

Dear Grandpa please watch over her

i felt so sad too Grandpa

Me & mum would always remember how you have done

although sometime mum didn't agree but atleast you have set what your demand

is devastating that we have such people living among the family

is a suffocated way to say

but the family tree looks very fragile

I really hope Grandpa you watch over us from above

i really wish that miracle would appear to heal the pain of the siblings

i hope they can open their heart and mind try to think what is suppose to be done & right!

that will just make Grandma live longer and happier

Dear Grandpa please rest in peace

Lots of love

Your Grand-daughter

Juliet

04.03.11 Thursday

2011-03-03T04:35:00.000-08:00

i always have this procedure, when my life start to get lucky:

when i can get everything i want, don't be proud or happy

cause you will test the bitter after

in fact this is a kind of proper mind set i have for myself

but it never happen physically

however lucky did find it hard to stay out from yappie

is never a hardwork you earn, not a coincidence, not a thing you built your melty sweat on

so it's true when things come easily for you

beware of the unwanted coming bad luck

so this is wad we say a routine karma

25.02.2011 Friday

2011-02-25T08:01:00.000-08:00

TGIF yay!!!!

but i'm not in the mood duh.....=.=

ok lets just start my boring blog now

went to IKEA for lunch today (ok not purposely going just for lunch, but actually i would like to go there have my lunch everyday) XD

huhu......actually that 1 is just for placing the tray

is pretty convenience

the foodcourt are located inside the IKEA

their famously dish is CHICKEN WINGS

when walk through all the tables you freaking see everyones plate are chicken wings

and the price is not that exp

(well consider is not if is in the categories of western yummeh)

see the cake over there is soooooooooo yummeh

i was bloated having all the food in the end

at first i was so firmly though desert gonna make me bloated and felt disgusted

but hey it's not!!!

IT SO DAMM DELICIOUS!!!!!

really you guy should have try that

you'll never REGRET!

when line up we don't forget our MUST DO

like CAMWHORING hahaha

well this is when are actually reaching the refreshment counter you can pick any meal that suit your appetite :)

(ok ignore the model of the picture=.=)

picture of our meals?

of cause does, how can i forgot this awesome job LOL

this is the cake that i mentioned

sooooo yummeh

this chicken was delicious but to those who wanna diet please take note that is kinda oily XD

Elyn & Me

actually IKEA is a place where keep the creative thing

and the sty-lo advantages has taking over the outsider market

well even though their price is abit HIGH to be compare

but it's just human does like stylish & modern environment right?

it change your mood your atmosphere

i gotta admit its something that will keep your creative idea never flow end

you can see what you saw and decide what your idea was

and bend it or break it or pin it

just right through the place makes you comfortable with

i am eventually advertising IKEA lol

anyhow then time problem for us to shop around we have to rush back to office before we get cane lol

so i swear!!! i gotta come again to shop like i never did , u just wait n see IKEA!!

Have a badminton session this evening

i start to keep fit in last month

i have stop eating like a pig

which mean i always eat till the plate is clean but not consider that i will be bloated in the end

it always make me suffer, and i always having the idea of how africa child has die how they suffer from starving.....i can't bear to throw any food (but indeed i'm a meals addictor )

and somehow i don't know when i really seeing my waist is double belly =.=

and i started to afraid

one of the reason is i love pretty cloth

i already drop 2 kg (applause)

but i intend to be more slim duh

i really wanted to be like skinny slim, i know is not that pretty right?

just really wanted to try what look will i be?

the end Good night my dear world and friend <3

2011-02-06T17:46:00.000-08:00

Life is short isn't ?
Seeing Grandpa lying on the bed and paralyse it did take me sometime to get myself not stumble

My Grandma and Grandpa was a lovely and naughty old couple
I remember how my Grandpa used to ditch my Grandma for a tiny little matter and it makes my Grandma nagging all the way down and she is So crazily mad duh ==
They were never been separated for so long I can sense that is a unsecured for them if they being apart too long
Nevertheless tragedy makes fool on someone, not just the one but a routine one

Right now he have problem with moving the worst is he barely open his eyes, he needs to be take Care off

When he fell down, my Grandma are the first one who think he is going to stand up again, that is just too naive... I guess they haven't really decide to give it a fact are coming on
Well after she knowed the serious of it, she collapse and felt the world have stop for her..... She cry while talking, keep swallowing the tears she afraid she will let it out , she wants to be strong manageable, but the heart of her couldnt let her.
I can see it from her eyes when the first day I saw her

Guys life is short treasures your beloved ones and make every single moment flow with happiness, when it comes to a relationship be sure this is not a game you're playing, is a pre-wedding procedure a process, you should learn to accept every single things that your partner do( in fact I'm trying now) i know is hard it will be never easy this is life right? We gotta stay strong until we are prepare and ready for the day we giving away ourself to start a family

:)

02.02.2011

2011-02-02T05:39:00.000-08:00

can i find myself?

Lots of thing happen lately

i don't know it could turn out to be this end but it definitely is a everyone's fault routine

i might be an ass busybodysome

alright forget about it

something is bothering me

i don't know what it is, i been in like lots of emotionally frustrated with the fusion minds

is basically the routine kinda life we get on

but i have this very annoying things

i guess i give it too straight to be lusty

it doesn't really matter when someone is cheating on you

i mean...does it really doesn't matter?

why would you cheat?

well thats not my business to justify someone who is right or wrong

but the friendship that we keep is completely broken trough your hand

i get pretty fed up with friends

i really have to get a stand for myself

i really just believe in myself

they....are just a selfish people who care's about themself

they don't really know what is like to be left out

i know

cause i tried

i was a teenager once in school, well obviously my face doesn't look quite friendly the all time(it can be just recognized as what they could say : lcly face :)

but it really not my fault right?

so i been isolated in the teenager stage,

well lucky i have a few friends who is totally know right me nice :)

so i treasure my friends alot, i care bout them alot

maybe im just over sizing my warming attitude and wishing get the same back as well

but it could never be.....

hurt by my Best friend once

and the second is my best friend as well

only can trust myself, i save a distance from them

that's what i gonna do next

anyway Happy chinese new year

fair world?

2011-01-02T08:34:00.000-08:00

比喻一些人是狗会不会太高估他们了呢？至少帮助狗狗，狗狗会感恩衷心会爱你会保护你，那些人根本都连狗都不如阿，单纯的狗狗都只在乎对它好的人牺牲自己，谁会对谁公平呢？人会对你公平吗？even it's ur own bone u can't even fucking get a word FAIR,well i just have to admit,我配不上公平这2个字！果然爱马后炮的人是最佳高手！可以得到自己想要的，我是什么。。。？ just a piece of SHIT,fucking shit!

Coldplay guitar chord (share)

2010-12-27T16:52:00.001-08:00

(CAPO ON 3RD FRET) (NO CAPO)

Bm7 (x20202) Dm7 (x57565)

G (320003) Bb (688766)

G (320005)

D (xx0232) F (x,8,10,10,10,x)

Dsus2 (xx0230) Fsus2 (x,8,10,10,8,x)

D* (xx0222)

A (x02220) C (x35553)

A7 (x02020) C7 (x35353)

INTRO: | Bm7 | G G*| D | Dsus2 |

| Bm7 | G G*| D | Dsus2 |

Bm7 G G* D Dsus2

V1: come up to meet you, tell you i'm sorry, you don't know how lovely you are

Bm7 G G* D Dsus2

i had to find you, tell you i ne-ed you, tell you i'll set you apart

Bm7 G G* D Dsus2

tell me your secrets and ask me your questions, oh lets go back to the start

Bm7 G G* D Dsus2

running in circles, coming in ta-les, heads are a science apart

G G* D Dsus2

C1: nobody said it was easy, it's such a shame for us to part

G G* D Dsus2 A

nobody said it was easy, no-one ever said it would be this hard

A7 (D)

oh take me back to the start

LINK 1: | D | G G*| D | D D* |

| Bm7 | G | D | Dsus2 |

Bm7 G G* D Dsus2

V2: i was just guessing at numbers and f--igures, pulling the puzzles apart

Bm7 G G* D Dsus2

questions of science, science and pr-ogress, do not speak as loud as my heart

Bm7 G G* D Dsus2

tell me you love me, come back and ha-unt me, oh and i rush to the start

Bm7 G G* D Dsus2

running in circles, chasing t--ales, coming back as we are

G G* D Dsus2

C2: nobody said it was easy, oh it's such a shame for us to part

G G* D Dsus2 A

nobody said it was easy, no-one ever said it would be so hard

A7 (D)

i'm going back to the start

LINK 2: | D | G | D | D |

| Bm7 | G | D | D |

Bm7 G D

OUTRO: oh - ooo-oo-oo-oo-ooo

Bm7 G D

ah - ooo-oo-oo-oo-ooo

Bm7 G D

oh - ooo-oo-oo-oo-ooo

Bm7 G D

oh - ooo-oo-oo-oo-ooo

Thursday 08.12.10

2010-12-09T06:31:00.000-08:00

Marina bay

I wanna do some crazzy shit

before i give up on this planet

i wanna dive in too deep n gets to see on those tiny creatures that i never seen in my own eyes

i wanna flight to every single place without a penny on my pocket

i wanna go ride on star cruise

obviously its certainly u can't live without money from doing it

lastly all i wanna do its.....

says i love you

for you my mum

for you my dear

for you my dear friend

for you my God

for my mum:

if it wasn't for your strengh and the massive minded attitude, i woundn't have been here writing a stupid childish blog for showing my gratitude

every parents who loves their child so much

and i can see i always been i trouble for you, from the time i was born till today i'm still a trouble

but....u never give up on me

when i met my bad influence friend

when i met my puppy love

you were always there nagging about everything could be bad to me

but i never listen

i let you down all the time

i've give you disappointment

i let you cry side to the bed, but i wasnt aware of

dear mum sincerely ....

i am sorry

i am grateful for what you taught me, and setting up a healthy mind set for me

you know....you could always say i was alike to my dad

but think about it, the attitude that strumble you, make u mad about all the time, its always like you.......think twice XD

mum i love you......please do give me more time to chg myself for you

My dear boyfriend:

i knew we doesn't have too much impression when we first met

but while we were already been together

you are that kind of responsible man that i have ever met in my life

you are no special from the others, but you are SO special

i know you always been so noob about romantic stuff, present to be gift etc...i know you can't possibly think of something like that, cause u''re originally NERDY

i like the way when i was making fun of you teasing you questioning you....and you are not going to get the correct answer ...like ...forever.....

i been nagging to you always, now current also u can't escape like always i'll always been nagging to you, you can't stop me

but you can stop me by a kiss XD

i can see everytime when u talk about the future, you are so naively pure n clean to dream on

but you know how to pause your dream, so tats wad i say you are like no others

i love you too much dear

please forgive me for my stupid temper

well the DNA contains alot of my mum genetics can't blame me duh =.=

please give me time to be your perfect girl ok

my dear friend:

thanks for your supporting always

we share the same topics

we share the same laugh

we share the same air

when i was in trouble, you always struggle out from trouble to solve my problem advance than yours problem

you always have your style, thats what we say cool about it XD

don't just seat home find more friends!

as long the problem is moving on....we know who is truly a friend

thanks for your kind support in everything

i wish you all the best in your life

find a good bf

i am so rajin........type so much =.=

07.11.10 Sunday

2010-11-07T05:07:00.000-08:00

boredom day =.=

had a little diarrhea this afternoon

so piss me out

why the hell is every sunday i have a little minuets for diarrhea?

its just because that i had my lunch at mamak stall?

erf......2morrow is a blueing day =.=

work work work

hope i was a workaholic

and makes me kinda responsible in anything and be respected by everyone than

but look at my FACE =.=

i won't get any words out of CUTE =.=

hope everyone kambateh for tomorrow

WE ARE MONEY SLAVE

oh yea

Big day

2010-10-25T05:47:00.000-07:00

Congratulations to this lovely couple

The very dream gorgeous, hideous, flamable wedding off all i ever join ^^

yea i been participate for being a bride's sister (although didn't help much =.=)

as well my little boogieman

i was kinda unware of wearing any specify cloths, tot would be as normal or etc...

but soon notice it real takes colouring in major, it happen to have receive a bless or goodluck fortune.... shd to wear a RED or white ^^ (well totally noob for live a 23 years just got to know the details=.=)

skip the girls make out

bet ya interested for boys dressing XD

heres a taste of geek

that it soooooooooo cute right?????awww.....>////<

each n one of them have a very unique name tag, the name will make you LOL n LOLOLOL

here's a 4ty nerdy (btw great pose XD)

with the effect lol a great match XD

sister definately plan for the whole trick for guys lol (is a tradisional to getting a wife with sincere gesture and proven)

before start the game, the groom have to give sister for red packet to enter the main gate, quite likely to enter a game for tocturing themself XD

(depents on how sister satisfy with your red packet then it counts u a pass)

total plan for 4 games

1st is crossing a line between main gate

we prepare the juicy grapes danging on de line

the rules is the boys have to cross the line & bend their waist as lowest as possible to across the line, but middle of it they have to take a bite one of the grapes only can pass through

and it counts u're pass the defficulty of level

2nd game is pumb up with marshmallow

1 guys lying on the floor n both hands holding marshmallow, & the other guy have to pumb down to eat the marshmallow with non-stop (tat day was quite rush, if not would be more calculative with marshmallow numbers)

3rd game is clicking on the face

well...can't denied it was quite painful, we using the cloths peg to lined on those guys faces, like nose, lips, ears or even eyebrown =.= haha

refer to my picture....

er....pain like =.= no way to home

and the last game is icy leg find the right key

we fill the 3 bucket with full of ice n water, n drop the keys to the important door (key to the bride) actually we also put some spare keys to tocture them haha

but this last gmae was quite fast la......

well u can guess how it works at the end of the procedure....the grooms finally gets the bride

although the procedure is the same, but we spend a happy memory together

aggressive plan ^^

aww....so tired =.=

blog like shit........damm i so lazy to blog nowdays...

like copy n paste only =.=

quite accurate try it out XD

2010-10-13T01:25:00.001-07:00

1. 你有吃早餐的习惯？有~~2 没有~~3

2. 你养过宠物？有~~7 没有~~3

3. 你有工作经验？有~~7 没有~~4

4. 你有好的运动细胞？有~~8 没有~~5

5. 你现在正在减肥？是~~9 不是~~6

6. 你认为看电影一定要吃零食？是~~9 不是~~10

7. 你觉得地球上出现过外星人？有~~8 没有~~11

8. 你曾有过很多恋情？是~~12 不是~~9

9. 你很少看漫画书？是~~13 不是~~10

10. 你到KTV就会唱个不停？是~~13 不是~~14

11. 你喜欢吃三明治？喜欢~~14 不喜欢~~12

12. 你会自创不同的菜式？会~~15 不会~~13

13. 你很会画插画？是~~A型不是~~B型

14. 你喜欢格子图案？喜欢~~C型不喜欢~~D型

15. 你很想出国上学？是~~E型不是F型

16. 你曾参加过某明星的后援会？有~~G型没有~~H型

A型人~~
不管是熟人还是陌生人，你都会主动与对方交谈，你给人的感觉很活泼也很大方且并不唐突，所以你并不惹人讨厌，你给人的第一个印象不错，你的思维过于活跃，所以身边总是很多朋友，但知心的并没有几个，你太贪玩，表面看似和谁都能相约吃饭，逛街，做一些亲密的事，这样会让你真正的好朋友怀疑到底与你之间的友谊是哪种，对方可能不能确定与你要好的程度，而如果对方又是不喜欢表达的人，这种情绪会越积越多，到最后不可负荷时，爆发出来，可能受伤的反而是你。所以注意一下自己的表现，你应该对不管是友情还是其他感情，都有鲜明的态度，这样才不会有不必要的误会和遗憾。

B型人~~
有你在的地方一定有欢笑，你善良，调皮，任性，霸道与贴心。你看起来活泼好动，但实际内心深处，你有些自卑而自负，你希望自己能把事情做到最好，你很在乎别人对你的评价，你的性格像小孩，单纯直接，情绪化，喜怒哀乐写在脸上，你没有心机，但也缺少些自我保护的能力，你表面看来很容易相处，但想要走进你的内心世界其实并不容易，你需要人家的鼓励，包容，宠爱和肯定，其实你也常常自我反省，你希望自己能做到起码80%的完美，但你似乎没那个毅力，所以你的情绪变化无常，一定是被这些因素困扰的。

C型人~~
你是择善固执的坚持派，有人与你聊天，你可以天马星空的聊，但你不会主动找对方聊天。你很有原则也很被动，你总是习惯呆在自己的世界里，你在朋友的眼里是比较难深交的人，大家感觉你和人交往，总是点到为止，你心里的那片天地不对外开放，也很保护自己的私隐。

D型人~~ 你是积极努力认真派，你对自己要求很高，但一旦遇到和你脾气相似的人，你们就很有惺惺相惜的感觉，因而相谈甚欢。你虽然表面看起来有些严肃，但是其实你单纯善良，你的想法总是积极的，你有很强的自我调节能力，所以即使你遇到苦难，也能很好的处理，你在朋友是最乖的朋友，因为当你真心喜欢一个人的时候，你的贴心和用心会不自然的流露出来，你个朋友的关系看似平淡，但其实双方心里的挂念，彼此都知道。

E型人~~
你开朗没心机，你对朋友很大方，也很周到你很舍得在朋友身上花钱，你看起来漫不经心，实际上你做事很有条理。一旦你要做，就会做得很快，可是往往你懒于去做，你很喜欢说话，你喜欢与别人交流意见，尤其是自己了解的事，你比较好强，可是那种好强并没给他人带来困扰。

F型人~~
你的废话不多，你喜欢观察，不管是人还是事物，你的心思慎密，眼光独到，你总能看出别人看不出的细节，你做事很有计划，这让朋友和你相处起来十分安心，因为你不仅把自己处理得很稳妥，空闲时，还能帮朋友做一些小事，你能掌握别人的想法，你的观点总是比较有建材，也很特别，你很理智和现实，你不喜欢天马行空的乱想，你觉得那样没意义。

G型人~~ 你不喜欢想得太远，只要眼下快乐就好，你没什么想像力，你每天关心的是今天要做什么，怎么做。你的生活很简单，正常吃，喝，睡，闷了找人聊点无关要紧的事情，把事情打发走。你对生活中的快乐与烦恼看得很开，你是个很容易满足的人。

H型人~~
你是和善亲切自然派，你生性豪爽，在你心里没什么过不去的事！你不自卑，不自负也不自私，人生对你而言跟玩似的，困难和不安到你那里，很快就消失，朋友与你一起很舒服，看起来对什么都不在乎的你，会把这种无所谓带给朋友，让对方也能很快走出低痱的情绪。

This blog was blogged weeks ago ==

2010-10-11T01:31:00.000-07:00

It was a springly warm sunny day, darn it it's pretty hot ==||

Taking train back to Singapore now. yeah it's my virgin 1st lol XD, learn that this is quite pretty cool though, seating on de 1st class ( well seems not much different ) not drinking any wine lol , might need bout 5 to 6 hours to reach destination.

So it's boredom really kill, I just spending my time to blog up some yesterday eating cuisine XD

Went to subway Giza shopping mall yesterday not much to shop around but I saw the famous vintage shop Fullhouse was there, too bad my slr was left at spore =•= sad huh but mostly sad thing is we didn't went there for our dinner too haha.( cold joker == ), actually is my boogieman gathering with his college friends ( they super funny n nice ) , we went for Tao's sushi buffet each person cost in 67 ringgit in no discount price, after discount will be 58 ringgit, kinda ex huh == , not much option through but it's still a place delicious to dine :) they have a chocolate foutain ( I am totally idiot n over excited about this fountain chocolate coz it's my first time haha) , fresh oyster ( not pretty fresh to me ==, guys dun have that too much freddy will got cha at night LOL) , sushi ( not so much I miss my いなりi didn't get that sob ) , prawn, chicken wings, 干贝 , たこ焼き, salmon n etc they also have a very special promoting way, they will serve you with the top 10 dishes ( but anyway we dunnoe are they really serve all 10 dishes up ) nvm coz we are totally bloated in de end XD. Carry on we went Starbucks , awww it's so heaven to me, I almost been temp by the caramel and all de creamy vanilla drinks but I am so damm full la, can't possible will handle another drinks, T.T so just wasted a chance order for mango smoothies, taste like medicine ==, well I'm just playing my iPhone all de way at the gathering, u know I am so shy meeting new peeps XD, oh ya got some incidents during the Starbucks section, I went for wash room, n there's a guy with a very fit body n muscle == but he is not handsome some age in 30 already, n I saw de signboard in ladies cause the door didn't lock so instintly I just push the door, Omg the muscle guy was inside peeping oh damm does he know doors always have a lock ==, and I was so shock I dunnoe wad shd I do I keep apologizing n the door is still widely open, I keep thinking shd I close de door for him? Anyway he did wanted to close so I might as well close it for him, it's so embarrassing, anyway this is de side story XD

Tomorrow work work work, my boogieman got a job in spore, thanks God sooo much finally we can meet each other freedomly needn't to waste lots of unwanted expenses :)

入党的条件 (LOL)

2010-10-07T02:53:00.001-07:00

新婚之夜，新郎用手抚摸新娘两腿之间问：＂这是什么？＂
新娘回答：＂党中央！＂
新郎问：＂我想入党，行不行？＂
新娘道：＂你迫切要求入党的心情我懂，但正式入党还需符合以下条件：

１只要你硬得过党的大门，它随时欢迎你入党。

２党的宗旨是舌头会转弯。

３入我党就不能入别党。

４对党要绝对忠诚，并誓死捍卫党的纯洁。

５不许入党前干劲十足，入党后萎靡不振。

６入党前必须埋头苦干使党中央欢心。

７要大胆创新，花式多样化促进党内和谐。

８不许走后门，除非党允许。

９每天最少要会晤一次，时间最低限一小时。

10每月足额交纳党费以保持党中央艳丽。

Jesus...found something interesting in cari

2010-09-22T21:03:00.001-07:00

某日，一個華裔不可知論者（agnostic）到pos office登記選民，pos office人員在填登記單時問他是甚麼宗教的，他講他是free thinker

結果登記單上agama一欄上寫了tiada agama

後來，宗教局的人通知他，加入x教可以得到100萬（RM）

他想來想去很煩惱，突然耶穌出現在他面前

耶穌說：兒子，你在煩甚麼？

華裔：朝早宗教局告訴我，入回教可以得到100萬 ringgit

耶穌：你拿到這100萬，想拿來做甚麼呢？

華裔：可能用來投資呱，用來賺更多的100萬

耶穌：你賺到那麼多100萬，想用來做麼？

華裔：取四個老婆，在海邊起一棟樓閣，開merz, 再買一艘遊艇，一架飛機，一架直昇機，買幾個離島建別墅，每個月去旅行

耶穌：想要孩子嗎？

華裔：要啊

耶穌：可是你祖先傳下來的姓氏不能再傳下去給孩子，不覺得過意不去嗎？

華裔：為什麼不可以傳下去？馬來西亞法律有講x教徒不可以有姓氏咩？

耶穌：不好意思，你們國家每天朝令夕改我也不是很清楚

華裔：就是囉

耶穌：那麼，有老婆、孩子、樓閣、跑車、旅行，你這樣就滿足了？

華裔：對啊

耶穌：會喝酒嗎？我這裡有一瓶XO

華裔：喝是可以喝，不過不喜歡，通常都是應酬人才喝

耶穌：為甚麼？

華裔：不好喝，很苦。而且每次我喝了，嘴會很乾然後脫皮，很不爽

耶穌：奇怪哩，我就很喜歡喝酒，不過都是一兩杯就好。你有每天大魚大肉的嗎？對健康不好噢

華裔：沒有喇，我每天早餐都吃廣東粥的。我知道啊，如果失去了健康，再多財富又有甚麼意義？我會注意的

耶穌：有想過移民去澳洲，每天可以吃鮑魚魚翅嗎？

華裔：其實還好，要我不吃這些也是可以的，尤其是鮑魚我不是很喜歡吃

耶穌：噢，那你最喜歡吃甚麼？

華裔：要講我的favourite food, 就非 kuay teow kia 莫屬了

耶穌：最喜歡哪一檔？

華裔：記得我小時候，每次有大考時，媽媽都會帶我到榕樹下吃kuay teow kia,他那個湯頭藥材味很夠，又不會很鹹，三層肉肥到剛剛好，大腸洗得很乾淨，豆腐也很滑很順口，他那個辣椒是獨家秘方，有一點sambal味又帶點酸，sibe好吃

耶穌：聽起來好像不錯下

華裔：你不吃豬肉的對嗎？

耶穌：不是不吃，是沒有得吃，在沙漠養豬比在馬來西亞起一座核電廠不爆炸更難你知道嗎？

華裔：是噢？我不知道哩～

耶穌：醬現在榕樹下還有在賣嗎？

華裔：現在沒有在榕樹下賣，開店了

耶穌：水準還是一樣好？

華裔：有一點退步了，不過辣椒還是一樣好

耶穌：oh, 那如果給你100萬個100萬，可是從此以後你不能再吃kuay teow kia, 偷吃也不可以，如果你試圖偷吃，湯頭會變成屎水，kuay teow會變成一條條毒蛇，大腸會變成蛔蟲，三層肉會變成三夾板，你能接受嗎？

華裔：哇，這個太。。。。。

耶穌：所以說，失去了kuay teow kia,再多個100萬人生又有甚麼意義？

華裔：我明白了

耶穌：那我走了，晚安，祝你每個禮拜都能吃到kuay teow kia

華裔：多謝你，晚安

人生需要的，不是樓閣、跑車、妻妾成群，而是最常忽略，卻最簡單的感動

End

2010-09-21T05:50:00.001-07:00

does like meaningful to you today?

What kind of world does give you a place to live? to breath? to love? or even move

Watched 3 of the video referring teenager killing innocent ppls & puppy tocturing them any kind of violence action you can imagine

we hate those idiot inhumane we hope them to be send to death stage, and hoping they get the tocturing as same for they did

Well...i don't know am i stupidly crazy

a flash though come to me asking me

What if 1 day, they felt regret for what they actually did? they were so losing them self for doing it? & they realize how inhumane they were last time?

and they really wanted a second chance?

will you give them a chance?

me myself felt gratefully if someone giving me a second chance

but i don't know are they deserve to have a second chance?

what you say?

Yes they are inhumane

Malaysia geeks worship msia for this 1

2010-09-15T17:30:00.001-07:00

916是有薪公假

（吉隆坡15日讯）人力资源部长拿督苏巴马廉声明，9月16日马来西亚日已列入公共假期，所有雇主必须根据1955年劳工法令，给于雇员有薪假期。

他对马新社说，政府是在2009年10月19日宣布，9月16日为马来西亚日，并在同年11月9日，在宪报上公布。

他说，雇主在1955年劳工法第60D（1）（b）条文下，必须给于雇员有薪假期。

dammm many holiday

i started to admire Lady Gaga ( she's wild )

2010-09-15T00:23:00.000-07:00

wow look at that? isn't it grool?
can't stop thinking she is on drug all the time
perfectly shout cum here.....
links to this http://www.thehollywoodgossip.com/2010/09/lady-gaga-meat-dress-tasty-or-tasteless/

05.09.10 Sunday

2010-09-05T02:36:00.000-07:00

一个人做得太过分

不要怪我

我一反脸

你就是一文不值

我的生命中不值得为你们这些脑残的人活着

侮辱人家的好意

侮辱人家的人格

你们这些人也不会好到那里

赫...

29.08.10 Sunday

2010-08-29T09:30:00.001-07:00

you are right

when times come

people will start doubting them

26.08.10 Thursday

2010-08-26T05:01:00.000-07:00

you are so that important

do you know that?

am i suppose to let it out loud only you know how special you are to me?

16.08.10 Monday

2010-08-16T08:43:00.000-07:00

Konichiwa minasan =.=

so tired....just have some hour window shopping with my ex-coll

lotsa pretty cloth at Iora =.=

but budget bit....i gonna survive untill end of de month

and gonna bring my thai fren "nunoi" to browse around what n what in singapore

die la..........this month is outta my budget......

wad de hell i am doing

entertainment please leave me alone T.T

15.08.10 Sunday

2010-08-15T08:21:00.000-07:00

好累哦

明天又要做工了。。。。讨厌啊

这个拜5就是我们的2周年哦

希望他会下来一起庆祝

好想好想你哦>.<

对不起每天欺负你

对不起我会突然很情绪化

对不起我每次讲话没有经过大脑

对不起我不知道要怎样做才能让自己的脾气改掉

谢谢你

因为你不嫌弃我

2狠母遗弃。只吃快熟面 4婆孙饿半年

2010-07-26T21:38:00.000-07:00

（新山25日讯）两名女儿先后离家失踪，59岁老妇靠捡纸皮，每月挣得二三十令吉，独力抚养3名外孙，三餐不继，只能以快熟面或灌水充饥！

2 包快熟面4人分

婆孙4人，即使以快熟面充作一餐，也只能4人共享2包，老妇有时看见外孙饿急了，宁愿束紧腰带，自己挨饿不吃。其外孙女，更曾二度饿得晕倒。

也有的时候，屋里真的找不到一毛钱，婆孙4人只好喝水充饥，幸运的话，还可吃点饼干填肚。

由于三餐不定时，其中一名外孙女更二度饿晕，一次是在学校上课时，一次是在抵达家门时，这才让校方董事部揭发在过去半年来，婆孙4人一直过着挨饿、捡别人旧书包烂鞋子的凄苦生活。

《中国报》日前在安排下探访她们4人，发现这名外婆余枝叶（59岁）与3名外孙，即外孙尤蒸淇（10岁，四年级）、尤铭蔚（8岁，二年级）和林伟健（7岁，一年级）住在士姑来皇后组屋，3名外孙皆住就读国光学校。

其中，外孙林伟健刚懂得爬行时，就被离婚的母亲抛弃，交由外婆余枝叶照顾。

余枝叶和林伟健，原本是与余的长女夫妇及另两名外孙蒸淇和铭蔚住在士姑来东方花园。

今年华人农历新年前，长女夫妇以东方花园屋子租金较贵为由，迁居至皇后组屋，讵料新年后，嗜赌的长女夫妇疑因为欠下大耳窿大笔债务，连夜收拾行李离家，遗下头发已花白的余枝叶，带着3名外孙过有一餐没一餐地过日子，甚至将陷入断水断电的窘境。

难得的是，日子再苦，感情深厚的婆孙4人，仍乐观地相依偎过日子。

没零用钱没吃早午餐小蒸淇曾饿晕课室

没钱吃午餐，尤蒸淇在班上饿晕，吓坏师生！

蒸淇指出，年初迁入皇后组屋后，父母经常睡得很迟，甚少理会他们。

她说，有天因为没有零用钱，她饿着肚子上学，午餐时间也没进食，后来胃痛不舒服，才会晕倒；之后，老师立即带她到休息室，班长更买面包给她吃。

她说，学校知道她的情况后，便向教育局申请，让她可在学校享用免费午餐，其弟弟最近也获得午餐津贴。

她说，平常婆孙4人都是吃饼干或快熟面充饥，也试过没钱时，一家四口喝水填饱肚子。

余枝叶说，蒸淇每天都没吃早餐上学，一直到中午才吃学校提供的免费午餐。

她说，一次蒸淇放学后，坐校巴抵达组屋楼下，已觉得很不舒服，所以在楼下喊她求助，怎知一抵家门就因太饿而晕倒。

另一方面，年纪小小的铭蔚说，上学的书包和鞋子都是外婆捡破烂拾回来的，穿去学校时遭同学嘲笑，他虽没有哭，心里却很难过。

他说，外婆很疼他们，有时候自己不吃，把快熟面都留给他们。

捡纸皮月赚30令吉欠房租、水电、校车费

欠房租、水电费及校车费，婆孙4人负债度日，撑得了一天算一天！

余枝叶由于得在家看顾孙子，只有丁点时间捡纸皮，每月赚取区区二三十令吉。

微薄收入根本无法负担日常家用，她不仅欠下约180令吉水费、180令吉电费，孙子的校车费用和屋租也一直拖欠，而有关当局已致函通知她，欲把水电供应切断，让她忧虑不已。

振林山区国会议员曾亚英得悉婆孙4人惨况后，虽身在国外公干，也交代助理吴祝光先拨出500令吉，解决婆孙的燃眉之急，除了缴清水电费，也购买干粮如米、饼干、饮料等，让婆孙不再挨饿。

国光学校董事部也协助4名孩子缴付校车费用，每月负担200令吉，从今年7月至11月生效，由董事部代表吴祝光和汤重广代为移交。

携儿女到麻将馆开赌嗜赌父母举债失踪影

父母嗜赌，经常带儿女到麻将馆开赌，之后更欠债“跑路”。

懂事的尤蒸淇（10岁）指出，华人农历新年前，在新东方花园住家时，他们曾遇过大耳窿上门追债，之后一家人迁至组屋，父母“跑路”后，大耳窿再次上门追债。

“大耳窿说，家里一切电器物品全归他们，甚至恐吓我们不准碰触屋里的物品。”

她指出，当外婆将大耳窿赶走后，大耳窿也没再上门。

蒸淇的父亲40多岁，从事建筑业，母亲则30多岁，从事倒酒工作，她不晓得父母欠下多少债务，但相信父母是因为嗜赌，才会负债累累。

她指出，近一两年，父母经常乘坐摩哆，载她和弟弟铭蔚去开赌，即父母在馆里开赌，她和弟弟在门口玩耍。

她透露，她和弟弟是年初某天，睡醒后就便再也没有见过父母，初时弟弟会一直哭着要爸妈，表弟伟健因为从小与他们生活在一起，也喊蒸淇父母为“爸妈”，所以好几晚都在哭闹。

蒸淇和铭蔚希望父母能早日回家，一家团聚。

蒸淇最懂事乖巧贴家规要弟弟遵守

3表姐弟中，年纪最大的蒸淇最懂事，除了会帮外婆做家务、洗衣，还自定“家规”贴在墙壁，让弟弟照着做，弟弟们也很听话照办。

家规第一条是“不可偷钱”，弟弟曾试擅自取走蒸淇的钱，因此她希望弟弟以后不会学坏。

虽然生活困苦，可是3姐弟人穷志不穷，比许多同龄孩子更节俭有礼，处处为彼此着想。

身世坎坷苦咬牙关再穷也要孙儿上学

余枝叶一生坎坷，年轻时挺着大肚子南下新山讨生活，原本留在她身边的3名女儿，一个车祸去世，另两个也先后离她而去，可是她从不怨天尤人，再苦也咬紧牙关，让孙儿受教育，成为有用的人！

她透露，本身是霹雳太平人，与丈夫育有6名子女，30多年前，因老公有外遇，当时已怀孕的她带着2女南下；至于另3名儿子则留在太平婆家，至今都没有再联络。

她诞下幼女后，曾替别人看顾小孩和老人家、打杂赚钱，没料到老天作弄，幼女车祸逝世，接着次女离婚后，把孩子丢给她照顾后即离家，接着长女夫妇也不知所终。

余枝叶坦言不想再记起以前的不愉快经历，所以对很多事件的细节都记不起来，可是一提到自己的坎坷身世，外表坚强的她，也忍不住落泪。

现在，她只希望3名外孙乖巧听话，学有所成，这也就是即使再穷，她都要外孙上学，一有空就督促外孙做功课。

“没有钱也要念书，只是孙子一直要补习，我真的没办法，所以每当他们不做功课，我就会很生气。”

“我想买床架给外婆” 蒸淇心疼双脚风湿常痛

一人有一个梦想，蒸淇想买床架给外婆！

询及3名孩子，如果现在能让他们如愿买样东西，最想得到的是甚么？

好动爱笑的铭蔚想要一部PSP游戏机，精灵可爱的伟健因为校鞋破了，想买一双新的鞋子。

蒸淇却说，她想买一张床架，因为外婆双脚风湿，每天和她们一起打地铺，脚痛一直无法改善。

说着说着，蒸淇突然眼泪缺堤，擦干眼泪后，她说，想到外婆每天辛苦地照顾他们，无法过好日子，心里很难过。

她也曾看见外婆因为弟弟不听话，打骂弟弟后，一个人躲在房里哭，所以她更想与外婆一起分担忧愁，长大后希望当老师，让外婆过好日子。

“遗弃孩子”未列刑事罪可向监护人索赔

报导：吴淑缤

大马法律未将“遗弃孩子”列为刑事罪，但照顾孩子者可向孩子监护人提出民事诉讼，索取赔偿。

陈博雄律师接受《中国报》访问时指出，据他了解，遗弃孩子的行为，不管是遗弃给身边亲友或是遗弃在外，在大马法律中尚未能构成为罪名，但以道德观念来看，此行为所需承受的社会压力，并不亚于法律的刑罚。

不过，他说，若照顾孩子者要采取法律行动，或可向孩子监护人提出民事诉讼，索赔精神及经济上的损失。

他说，孩子出生后，其监护人自然而然落在父母身上，他人没有义务及责任供养该名孩子。

他指出，照顾者也可向法庭申请强制令，强制父母供养孩子，将扶养孩子的责任交回父母执行。

不过他强调，法官会以孩子的利益为基础，考虑父母是否还适合，及有足够能力提供孩子健康成长的条件，否则在照顾者拒绝照顾孩子后，或可能交由福利局照顾。

陈心坚：孩子会有自卑感

孩子在穷苦的环境长大，将影响其自信心及自尊心，内心可能存有“比别人矮一截”的想法！

马来西亚博爱辅导中心（新山分会）执行长陈心坚受《中国报》访问时指出，自尊心受到影响，也会引发自卑感，间接影响孩子的学习能力，造成孩子在学习过程中会与其他同学做比较，进而产生比别人矮一截的自卑感。

“这样的感觉可能会牵绊着孩子成长，甚至长大后即使成为成功人士，内心还是有着比不上别人的阴影。”

他说，这类孩子长大后是否执着于追求金钱则因人而异，但不排除存有极端想法的可能；如果校方和教师适时开导，或靠社会人士帮助，还是能协助孩子站起来。

“校方和老师的从旁协助和鼓励非常重要，教导孩子以正面态度看待事情，有助孩子面对未来。”

how come this kinda ppl would do something like that,
soon karma will begins

http://cforum2.cari.com.my/viewthread.php?tid=2010949&extra=page%3D1
if someone is interested to giving some donate for them
please click on de link before comes 31 july 10
tq

2010-07-19T08:38:00.000-07:00

get tan this summer

ohhh my goshhh

i am so so so excited for this thusday

is already like my heart is lying on da beach

screw it screw it >.<

ok i'm still haven't been packing yet

just some stuff is totally would uh huh.... to use then it already lie in da bag

ok guys...you are my special followers in my heart

definately brings you a souvenier lol

(oh no...mistake languages all over the page...)

bought an vintage sun glass >.<

can't wait to be camwhore with it

19.07.10 Sunday

2010-07-18T04:18:00.000-07:00

goodbye to boogieman

switch mood to Bali trip

hell ya....i'm going bali for sure >.<

omgoshhhh can't wait sun tanning at the beach

anyway saw the schedule, no sun tanning time for sure =.=

but it will be lots of activity included

sure it won't be a lame trip for us ^^

eating oats + cornflacks right now....is sooo ewwww......

i mean ...wad can i eat now?

lazy to walk,run or even climb LOL

i am just a little too lazy.....

finally is monday tomorrow...

gotta pack my feelings back again

a weeks a smile and a wild is a blessing things we had

i just wonder life is so greatful

why can't even make myself prettier without effected by her?

i mean she just a total idiot for me to been effected

life is reality but not fragile

she needs to consolidate herself i think

well who cares....

i suppose who u guessing i bet u d know hehe

社会生病了

2010-07-14T21:46:00.000-07:00

强奸，自毁，贪恶，残忍......
让周围变得无法想象的败坏与腐烂
我哭了
看了不自爱的新闻
看了无辜女生被奸杀
看了无辜的人民被政府摧残

没眼看这世界
人的爱可能可以宽容１００个人但不是全世界
神的爱超过１００个人甚至更多
神你在哭吗？

我哭了

馬來西亞人的邏輯有問題！

2010-07-12T21:50:00.000-07:00

身邊越來越多朋友對政府、政黨、治安，甚至是警方有發不
完的牢騷，發洩以後常說：“為了孩子，我想移民。”
尤其是談到種族主義、官商勾結、欺壓良民的狗官時都咬牙
切齒──並且都有一種“已經在破壞中，還有更大的破壞要
來”的感慨，所以紛紛萌起要移民的念頭。
只是有個邏輯我搞不懂：為甚麼要走的是我們，而不是那有
問題的人？
再想想，馬來西亞人的邏輯確是如此：某位同事工作態度很
差影響到我，那我辭職算了。某個櫃檯服務員態度惡劣，那
我讓步算了。甚至家裡老公有外遇，也是那個做老婆的帶著
孩子自動離開。
今天情況發生在整個國家，也用這種邏輯：“國家管理者不
好，那我移民算了。”
幹嘛要走的不是那做錯事的人，而是無辜受連累者？國家是
我們的，要走的理應是破壞國家利益的人，不是維護國家利
益的人。
所以我總好奇移民者的心態，為何是約2千8百萬人民去躲
避那幾個破壞國家的人？不是那幾個破壞國家的人，應該避
開我們嗎？趕走幾個人，不是比讓2千多萬人痛苦好得多？
設法讓那幾個人搬走，不是比我們所有人搬走更符合經濟效
益嗎？
三五個惡霸闖進你的地方，那你就把整片天堂拱手讓出去，
自己另覓居所。難怪壞人越來越囂張，貪贓枉法的事也越來
越明目張膽。馬來西亞人很怪，錯把“姑息養奸”當作“息
事寧人”
抱著那種“你不走，那就我走”心態的馬來西亞人，真像是
把委屈當作理所當然的小媳婦，雖然可憐兮兮，但這也是咎
由自取。誰叫你不懂得反抗？誰叫你不懂得和所有受害者一
起反抗？
所以你只好選擇收拾包袱，哭著離開。
(文／曾毓林。惡主編手記)

i think is quite reasonable...so it's for you ^^

Thursday 8.07.10

2010-07-08T05:37:00.000-07:00

Imagine your balls were gonna crack like this ( LOL )

scare ya

lately i am process to be very not uptight keep fit schedule

well most of the time i have been visualize in my brain to schedule down all the things i am gonna "DO"

infact, i will change again at the time =.=

ok screw me XD

i bought "Celebrity's Choice Inchloss Bpdy cream"....on tuesday

it was like bout 25++ bla bla

still few days to go for result...

proving this product is damm geng

maybe after a few days i was like " ah i slim abit liao....."

=.= i'm sure boogieman going to be like sweating all de time

hehe

i had a very bad day today

i overlook something and my senior slack me off with words

aikz......i hate myself for always careless

i hope i can overcome those habit =.=

had maggie & milk + cornflaks for dinner

wondering this diet geeks still eating so much

haha

miss my dear soooo sooo much >.<

Saturday 03.07.10

2010-07-03T00:56:00.000-07:00

Well the life in Singapore now is BORING

i don't know

i just missed my home my family my friend and my loves 1

for what which it seen so far....

s'pore quite a small place =.=

i mean like the good thing is, you know....you can just walk to here till there O.O

but....things are not always de rotten n spoiled

is also a giving complimented country

like er....etc n etc

but expenses is damm much

everything must included tax money bla bla bla

dun seem to be much good if u really getting a low pay =.=

miss my boy now

hmm..

Bahavior stumble

2010-06-23T22:16:00.000-07:00

If you don't want to let me know
spilt it out

you fucking done something so bitch yet u still not feeling punish
so issit de 1 ur destinate is a dumbie or dumb?
wadeva
i dun give a fuck care ur ass mind

Missing You

2010-06-20T06:20:00.000-07:00

You're such a big bad ass

i am started to miss d

after just coming down

why you are so tat bad making me miss you barely to cry

i am so down T.T

15.05.10 Saturday

2010-05-14T20:02:00.000-07:00

finally back to my where sweet n rubbish hidden LOL

hey peeps i want to annouce something ^^

I PASS MY PIANO EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 of my pieces get full marks !!!!!

it actually did help me drag my score higher

frankly to say

my scale sucks =.=

most of the time i was practicing pieces rather than scales

anyway drop all of it

i just wanna share 1 of the happy things that just pass through the week

what would you be stressing out if you're not happy?

the most thing to spread your anger and emo is just listen to some music which inspire you or your feelings, to make yourself feel comfortable

well this is the thing that i usually do

but what if that ppls is just so bitchy?

slamp her in the face (nah i jz kidding)

for me, i will listen and provoke back, cause it isn't right when u feel is not right

some ppl think them theirself is the greatest creator from God

and bla bla bla everything they say is so F correct with no miss

option 1

Let it be

option 2

fight back for your christ sake

me?

ppl treat me bad , i treat them the same

my character is kinda of bitch i can say LOL

Wednesday 28.04.10

2010-04-28T06:54:00.000-07:00

I Guess the feeling i had is so freaking bussy......

Although i can get use to it or in other way to distress out with alone some suggestion

Sometimes i really...........is not just really...

i making myself living in a disaster

Living in a fear of "ppls minds" (which mean really take twice a consideration about ppl criticise you)

is kinda tough to carry on

you want to get well with each and everyone,

but it doesn't mean ppl are usually wanna get involve with you

Yeah is kinda a "tragedy" in the end of the story

but the fragile of your smile still danggle on...

you can't forget thats the thing to do......ok basically is a NEED

and if it was worst, you will have a added bonus like a....

BACKSTABBER....or......a fragile someone=.=

propally a lunatic person would handle some situation like this

i called that "super fragile+backstabber" T.T

How can this world would tolerant someone that ......i mentioning above

And if it wasn't.....

which lunatic can accept all of those shit that someone did

guess i am naive enough to still pass this stupid pure dream in my visualize

ok i am paranoid now............

Sunday 18.04.10

2010-04-17T09:05:00.000-07:00

i'll be so miss you

So it's coming earlier or is it predictable

the moment of truth has become so barely blur

i know the separation condition has making me feel uncomfortable,nervous, visualize some reason of making myself drown quickly to the emonest =.=

aikz....

my feeling is so knock down by you...........

dear....i don't know am i able to keep moving on

am i able to go strong without u right by my side

i am just totally have my entire brain thinking about it and making myself down

but i know this is what a selfish behaviour, acting like this doesn't make our relationship grow stronger or mature

take it as a risk of exchange a better lean on life with me n you

and that is wad i been keep comforting myself with

surprising you were too though of the same way

guess i been influence by you so badly lol

nvm........i just need some frustration or something that i can really really earn or yawn too

i don't expect to anyone but you

gosh...........i realize that i am sooooo love you

by then i wish those bad things are effected, has been erased !

gradually i am just so miss you

completely like a mad doll.................=.=

Thursday 08.04.2010

2010-04-08T02:38:00.000-07:00

Seriously, i been away from blog in pass few weeks ( duh...is long enough )
gotta catch up some hip tales life ( ok just kidding )
life still as usual, with an unexpected surprise in last month ( is not the time for yell it out yet )

Living in s'pore for 3 weeks
pretty busy and rushing time
every single place, space & time is = MONEY
can't imagine life is living without money huh?
sometimes a splendid though is flash over and tell me,
what if Singapore become an space universe, and if u wanna entry the country u're gonna make sure u bring ur entire property over to enter a fantasy place ( ok its not so splendid i think =.= )
ok it's not what u did for i wad i wrote
i am just exeggerating the whole sentence
not special as what you think
but of cause they have cheap things and fairable stuff to buy ( forget about currency rate =.= )
if u earn this much take a deep comparison with you current state,
the expenses in s'pore pretty much cheaper than living in your own race country much much more ( well if u take both same amount of the number....you can use my way lol)

23 of april is nearer, my fingers still stuck in wrong notes
am i going to defeat the evil?

20.03.2010 Saturday

2010-03-20T10:40:00.000-07:00

Have a great weekend with my boogieman today
aw...i miss him so damm much
i know i know...i been exegerating
ya...u can just visualize how u missed someone so badly >.< ( while u are not staying wif him anymore )
he treat me for thaifood...
well for the food star comment i can't eventually give a good comment, but roughly to say is still able to stuck in =.=
the juice was quite ok....
but still a little bit for budget

guess i'm had enough of problem lately
thinking bout life still hanging on in the middle
while u are still processing ur studies ur work
having a plan for a night out, plan for the future etc....
seriously take a deep breath for yourself
learn that you had or to let go something
you just can't denied the fact you had on now
keep it on the fragile though, carry on the reality
we all know that u r suffocate
path from path u need to choose a better life to lean on
God bless us from what we done
we give n take
and we take we give
God forsake we scrifice

Thursday 18.02.2010

2010-02-18T02:54:00.000-08:00

tired tired tired...........
i am going to get back all the tiredness that i had spent on last few day during CNY
haiz.........
have to go back to work tomorrow......>.<
sienz.........
have to face to someone that i dislike >.<
heiz..........
sienz la
faster take all my exam
baru next time no need to do account jor >.<

I HATE ACCOUNT!!!!!!!!!

Sunday 24.01.2010

2010-01-23T21:33:00.000-08:00

sometimes i just try a different angle to switch things be a lil more reasonable

seeing back those annoy stuff which is undone back in 2009
is quite a waste of 3 hundred sixty five days
everyday

and lately i been eye nail by my Boss, who is sooooo certain not wanna approve my confirmation, kay guys
i'm pretty down and upset when i heard about it
and it still not ok now....

ok i am trying my best to do whatever i can
but sometimes human species is different kind for each and one of it
you can't compare who is a completely a genieus to a nomal and using 0.5% brain normal geeks
well i know i'm that actually sloppy n memory is out of bounce me myself
but yes.....i try very best to do a job
i want my job to be perfect done,
sometimes i am just so busy like i'm in hell doing a receptionist position to like read over every dead ppl pass story
that is just so uncool
i mean i have try to understand everything
ok.....forget it
i know that the more i explain ppl would just think it as i giving more excuses
and the more i say the more they can't accepted you
well the final conclude i giving myself is
i didn't think i did not try my best to get my job done
it just the time n less of it
i know human species is just so annoying
they are freaking sucks all the time
paranoid is what they can actually do
give it a simple thought for me please

ok my days are so sucks now days

but thanks to my dearest darling who is not giving up hope on me
and let me do it again
i know that i let you down
i let you feel like giving up
but hey dear i am trying for the up-coming exam
please do belive me
all of things that you do will be worth it

i love you

Wednesday 20.01.2010

2010-01-20T00:50:00.000-08:00

Supposely today is going to be a great day
i mean it's just as usual
i didn't know it could be so ....argh

ok i know i know i didn't put much affort on it
so hey my gratefull peeps
fuck me kay?
i fail

can just fuck myself for not over controlling myself in anything
i didn't take any responsibility for my exam
so that's de reason for me fail i ya
i am fucking useless

ok......
fuck me off

ya i am so dumb can't even score the easy papers

Saturday 15.01.2010

2010-01-15T22:52:00.000-08:00

i have a plenty of hope everyday

half day work today
still tired like usual
slept early but still feel annoying sleepy

nth as usual today
my senior n the VIP ( in higher management level senior )
they go for the monthly meeting
and for the revenue of staying longer inside the meeting room
boss has treated all of the staff pizza for lunch ^^
guess we are all so lucky, needn't go for meeting but still have nice food hhe
i think it cost over about 300 ringgit =.=
for 10 slice
and it just enough, and i pack 3 slice back too XD

so bored.....to death
i still can't figure it out
what is the best way to diet without exercise =.=
eat less?
nah......boogieman won't allowed, and i starv fast
ok....i know u wanna hammer me already =.=
i am too lazy to exercise
and my breast=.= so painful when they get bounce up n down rf
so.....haha any suggestion ?

Wednesday

2010-01-13T06:32:00.000-08:00

hug like your loves one

same old day as usual
looking at my fat belly is almostly the largest giant ball i ever had to hang on my body =.=
calling customer
well i do really have some confidence at my job right now
cause my senior is a damm serious, and she definately is not the sloppy kind
she manage a very good procedure, like in a every single ways
well is kinda impressive right?
but i am the blur Queen instead asking me to be so mangeable for all those things =.=
well atleast now i have confidence for some way to manage my things

is quite a day right
cool breeze air
smells great
a lil sleepy right now
maybe the atmosphere for today really does let me doze off for a single second

there are so many reason for me to not exchange back me, myself & i
but there is a plenty of reason why should i change my life my character
but none of them is a prompt promise like you to God
is almost to be so true to find someone that you'll get along with
thks God for not forsaken me
everytime that i am so wrong
not even a human being can forgive me
but God always forgive n patient with my attitude
Greater from all the wide wide galaxy
i just try to be a girl who is totally pure
that will satisfy me enough

Sunday 10.01.2010

2010-01-10T03:37:00.000-08:00

gotta work tomorrow
quite a OT week (though the smells ahead haha)
wow New year is almost reaching
but still.....broke like usual
hope i can get ang pow as much as i can (u can call me ms ang pow collector)
but please put money inside la,
or else i collect ang pow for wad =.=

i am so sinful today
for last time wad did i do to my friend i am still felt guilty
i cannot tolerant myself for have a sluty behaviour
either do myself hated myself
i pray to God today, for begging my salvation
God would not forsake me,
that's everyone know's that
i should be so grateful for who i met in the past of my life
they are so helping
including my mum
although she hate's me alot for wad i done in my teenager age

but still i can't forgive myself.....

Wednesday 06.01.2010

2010-01-06T05:24:00.000-08:00

this pic making me warm enough for the day

same old day as usual
'fragile smile
'unwilling to be
'force to be
is everyday habitual
it more on became something which is already become your character

tired.....
like working in 24-7 and 365days
nah....just complaining

lately been really mad up on some @idiotic@ customer
i didn't mean to say so....
but sometimes they are just too boring and taking u as a soft toys or doll to fool around you
ok here it goes.....
some random stuff i need check n sign n hand it back to B side ,
but maybe i am over sloppy to check with the stuff
n the scariest things is very predictable to be happen =.=
those stuff that B side gave me, i need to courier to the customer
so the unlucky thing is...the missing stuff are from the idiotic customer T.T
so in a very hard way....i tried to convince the customer that i'll give them the other 1 with CTC, in the matter of fact, the stuff that i mention, once u declare from custom, then the paper copy would be original or pass when the auditor check, and this is so fucking TRUE!

THE STUPID CUSTOMER WON'T BUY ME

well....first she say okay....
so i am so fucking happy immediate action n courier to them
n after she receive....
she say
EH MY HEAD SAY, CANNOT LEH...
wtf.......?
so this is wad i fucking beh song
wad cannot? first u say u can accept CTC now u say u cannot
n is ur LAW?
idiot lo.....
nvm........i am just so frustrate with those idiot customer
who is
'NO PAYMENT FOR ME
'STILL VERIFY
'BOSS NOT AROUND
'THE MANAGER NO YET SIGN
all that bull shit
TO EXPLAIN TO ME WHY THEY CAN'T PAY ME THE 7% GST !!!

although they know the payment is in cash term and cannot be dragging longger than a week.........
but still they do
they even drag like over a 25k SGD
wtf.........

hmm a day for me is so adventurer
either who would know i am not happy?

28 December 2009 . 11.54pm

2009-12-28T07:51:00.001-08:00

my darling just shut his eyes in half, maybe he just try to be sexy Xoxo

asking me how's my x'mas going ?
my ans : pretty sucks man .
even though is over x'mas
still....never get any better

my last wish is that i can get my job done before the NEW YEAR approach

actually did i pray today?
no........like in de last when...?
pathetic life
i mean. i gotta change after this year right?

zzzz sleep times....

Unsituation

2009-12-17T23:44:00.000-08:00

Christmas is around the corners
so what's your plan?

First of all this month is totally a bullshit month for me
i'm broke the first of mention
second my boogiemans is barely broke too T.T
so the conclusion is...we just have a home rice instead of going out celebrating like the other romantic couples who does this every festival in the groovy restaurant or have some italian dishes....
but mainly to say, we are not celebrating T.T
aww.....sad right
he is going off when 25th bullshit la....
So anyone wanna be my guest?haha juz kidding

These day i was discovery something that might not drop my eyes off (coz i already figure it out like i have a 6 sence =.=)
trying to express that am i too would do something like that?
i try not to be so frank to mention bout this kay, just bring some sentence of my unexpected what will going off next.
maybe i would do something like that, but after all that passive thinking
i don't think i will actually do it
cause someones is so good to me.....i can't do it
maybe lonely is the main killer of pain
is quite a awful feelings
either do i need that feelings
i just hope everyone can defeat it
well that's just a rushing through my head like in a weeks ago

My office began a politic problem
well i know my situation, someones of cause doesn't like me that much
i know i know....i am use to it like already is in my life, stucking with it already
..........yawn.....zzz
why can't those ppl just get a life and start to living their self care about their fucking problem? please can i just fucking tell you
STOP SAYING BEHIDE PEOPLES FUCKING BACK?
is none of your business actually,
this our life
you don't like it u sucks with your own eye ball
dig it out plz........
the way to not letting u feel so sucks
is kinda piss when u working in such situation
everyday what are your work was n what r u doing is a fucking crime
u need to fucking alert urself in every single minuets
misunderstanding is never going to be end
WHEN SOMEONE DOESN'T REALLY FUCKING LIKE YOU
YOU ARE FUCKING NO WAY TURNING BACK
YOU ARE FUCKING NO WAY
alright?

okay...........i am piss
i am really is piss
i smell foul language coming out from my fingers this typical week
and is stronger than ever
i can fucking fuck a person with no consideration for GET A NEW JOB!

So Glad

2009-12-15T04:00:00.000-08:00

this pic was tooken when last week i was after doing my haircut done
wahaha so noob
but i am so happy today, with the gesture of my smile
cause i think i finally do something great
although the puzzle are finally solve
still the proper way for not falling down to the cliff i still need to keep move on stronger
actually i am not strong enough to pull myself over
gladly god always put someone that can totally tolerate my temper n emotional for me
if i can say i'm hunt for a special festival every year
but well say that i am enjoying my festival everyday
sometimes i don't even know why i am doing this
the unlogical thinking, perhaps some of the though and gesture is tearing me away from the brightside .
i'm a person who does things wrg but realizing everytime after done
that's kinda like unpredictable in my brain cause i am fucking retard or something
yeah that's kinda how it is

what i'm glad today cause i help my friend too to solve her puzzle n sickness in her heart
hope she do great as well
well i know i am horrible GOOD
so just treat me a meal or an hours of game XD

way back into love

2009-12-12T01:39:00.000-08:00

i just feel a little unconsious today
fine.......
i just doesn't suit for anyone

Dashboard Confessional - Belle of the Boulevard

2009-12-05T19:40:00.000-08:00

they are just so amazing
while listening to this track i felt calm
after all the office war T.T

i might be OT 24-7
its instinct to do it
and put a lil force myself from doing it

this is how i end my Job daily in a speedy way

Will sun shine for her again

2009-12-03T04:54:00.001-08:00

in this critical time
i shall not give up
i knew i can do it
they just want me to drown
i have none offence to them
they might be a little passive
anyway i'm just deal with it

sometimes i'm seems idiotic
but hey i'm not
i have feelings too
but i just don't get to communicate well with other ppl
maybe that's wad make my eq so damm LOW?

poor thing

i had a bad day
yes can obviously see
ok my days are sucks
i was throwing out middle of the night yesterday and gastric somemore
my god i was so pathetic
it's like someone tries to torn you apart from inside your body
after let it all out you just don't feel any better...=.=
so okay
my dead line was yesterday
but i hardly to attend
i have no choice to take leave
2 days of MC
but i plan to go work the next day, since my dead line was already over

so this morning i feel numb.....1st i woke
and i feel numb in 15 mins
and another 20 mins
30 mins
ok..............still numb
so i was thinking can or not for me going to work in such pathetic state?
and tata..............i let my body do all the instruction
u know my brain is like sucking a marijuana can't even fucking move or think
then my body is pushing me to the water tank
then i just let it numb brain and follow what my body instruct me to do
(sometimes i really think i can just speechless but understanding what my body want)
then was i a lil late for reaching my work place
god damm i make it to the office
is like crossing an alley over a big mountain and rounding in a wizard jungle
then finally reach my destination..........
>.<
i was ok after 3pm something =.=
thks god

haiz..............everyday sick
cut i cut my hand wrist ? T.T

After sick

2009-11-27T05:03:00.000-08:00

host is so PINK tat day rf

sweetness of all rf

super BFF we both look kawaii leh haha

Simply love my short hair
Chilling n cool , love it
thoses pic are taken when 21 november 2009
my BFF Bell's bday (wonder if blog tags blog XD )
party at cabana
i look fat with short hair T.T

well is been awhile away from the exam and get my ass back to my daily movement habbital
either i have some cash to hang n crave around or just being an otaku instaed
well that's just a super down life right?
my boogieman are going back to his home in nilai
i been abandon in this loneness house >.<>.<>.<

nth special in this particular week
tomorrow going to have sushi with elyn n her bf ( her's honey treat )
wahaha
口福口福

haiz...........so sienz
without him T.T
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